Play The Music In My Heart

one step closer.

2012-02-10T00:37:00.000+08:00

let me tell you a secret:
I've always wanted to be good at dancing.
dance is like music, it helps you to express yourself
in ways words can never describe.
to be honest, I really feel the limitation of words nowadays.
I've always admired how the human body can be so soft,
so graceful, so flexible, so edgy all at the same time.
that's why I love watching dance shows and love the kpop fandom.
it amazes me how dance can defy everything our bone
structure was made of, it's like testing the human strength: how long
would it take for you to break.

God, you're so amazing.

but sadly, I'm not blessed with such a talent.
super skinny plus tall makes every move super awkward,
pair it with long limbs and the worst flexibility ever
and you've got yourself an awkward spider with flailing arms.

I'm honestly saddened sometimes.
oh well, I can continue watching my kpop and be happy
that at least someone else is living my dream.

To my darling eliana:
yes. I know. I won't give up.
I'm tired, but hell, who isn't right?

So thankful for you and epic high and ali and tutsi and yihand etc.
coffee, food and insanity makes me sane,
and I'm so grateful for everything that makes me
just a teeny little bit happier.

I shall work hard and save up.
I'll buy a house in Greenland 'cos it's cold there. or maybe Argentina.
And we'll fly to Hawaii together when we get sick of the cold.
And I'll buy an island and name it 413
so that we can all live there happily and open up shops that sell everything.

We'll be the happiest people in the world.

But somehow, I know we already are.

I love you.

only heaven knows.

2012-02-05T01:03:00.001+08:00

Been thinking so much more lately.
going through the same period of screwed up emotions
like during eoys again.

why are we working so hard for?
why do we have to fight with others,
just for the sole purpose of success?
did God really create humans just to step over each other?

honestly, I really don't know.
I'm just so freaking tired of everything in my life right now.
homework, school, people and every other freaking drama
that is screwing my life up.
I don't even know what I feel anymore.

I've tried. I've tried. I've tried. I'm tired. I really am.

To be honest,
I'm just contented with opening a little coffee shop
with a stationery shop beside it. And yihand's bakery
would be right across my shops.
the whole of 413 can just open shops,
and we'll have a gorgeous street of lovely people.

I don't need everything.

I don't know what I'm fighting for anymore.
It's just too hard.

And I'm too tired to try.

Faith.

2012-01-31T23:05:00.000+08:00

An Atheist Professor of Philosophy was speaking to his Class on the problem Science has with God. He asked one of his new Christian students to stand.

Professor: You are a Christian, aren’t you, son?
Student: Yes, sir.
Professor: So, you believe in God?
Student: Absolutely, sir.
Professor: Is God good?
Student: Sure.
Professor: My brother died of cancer, even though he prayed to God to heal him. Most of us would attempt to help others who are ill. But God didn’t. How is God good, then? Hmm?
(Student was silent)
Professor: You can’t answer, can you? Let’s start again, young fella. Is God good?
Student: Yes.
Professor: Is Satan good?
Student: No.
Professor: Where does Satan come from?
Student: From.. God.
Professor: That’s right. Tell me son, is there evil in this world?
Student: Yes.
Professor: Evil is everywhere, isn’t it? And God did make everything. Correct?
Student: Yes.
Professor: So who created evil?
(Student didn’t answer)
Professor: Is there sickness? Immortality? Hatred? Ugliness? All these terrible things exist in the world, don’t they?
Student: Yes, sir.
Professor: So, who created them?
(Student had no answer)
Professor: Science says you have 5 senses you use to identify and observe the world around you. Tell me, son.. have you ever seen God?
Student: No, sir.
Professor: Tell us if you have ever heard your God.
Student: No, sir.
Professor: Have you ever felt your God, tasted your God, smelt your God? Have you ever had any sensory perception of God, for that matter?
Student: No, sir. I’m afraid I haven’t.
Professor: Yet you still believe in Him?
Student: Yes.
Professor: According to empirical, testable, demonstrable protocol, Science says your God doesn’t exist. What do you say to that, son?
Student: Nothing. I only have my Faith.
Professor: Yes, Faith. And that is the problem Science has.
Student: Professor, is there such a thing as Heat?
Professor: Yes.
Student: And is there such a thing as Cold?
Professor: Yes.
Student: No, sir, there isn’t.
(The Lecture Theatre became very quiet with this turn of events)
Student: Sir, you can have lots of heat, even more heat, superheat, mega heat, white heat, a little heat or no heat. But we don’t have anything called cold. We can hit 458 Degrees below Zero which is no heat, but we can’t go any further after that. There is no such thing as cold. Cold is only a word we use to describe the absence of Heat. We cannot measure cold. Heat is energy. Cold is not the opposite of heat, sir, just the absence of it.
(There was a pon-drop silence in the Lecture Theatre)
Student: What about darkness, Professor? Is there such a thing as darkness?
Professor: Yes. What is night if there isn’t darkness?
Student: You’re wrong again, sir. Darkness is the absence of something. You can have Low Light, Normal Light, Bright Light, Flashing Light… But if you have No Light constantly, you have nothing and it’s called Darkness, isn’t it? In reality, darkness isn’t. If it is, You would be able to make darkness darker, wouldn’t you?
Professor: So what is the point you are making, young man?
Student: Sir, my point is, your Philosophical Premise is flawed.
Professor: Flawed? Can you explain how?
Student: Sir, you are working on the Premise of Duality. You argue there is Life and then there is Death, a good God and a bad God. You are viewing the concept of God as something finite, something we can measure. Sir, Science can’t even explain a thought. It uses electricity and magnetism, but has never seen, much less fully understood either one. To view death as the opposite of life is to be ignorant of the fact that death cannot exist as a substantive thing. Death is not the opposite of life, just the absence of it. Now tell me, Professor, do you teach your students that they evolved from a monkey?
Professor: If you are referring to the Natural Evolutionary Process, yes of course, I do.
Student: Have you ever observed Evolution with your own eyes, sir?
(The professor shook his head with a smile, beginning to realize where the argument was going)
Student: Since no one has ever observed the Process of Evolution at work and cannot even prove that this process is an on-going endeavor, are you not teaching your opinion, sir? Are you not a Scientist but a Preacher?
(The class was in uproar)
Student: Is there anyone in the class who has ever seen the Professor’s brain?
(The class broke out into laughter)
Student: Is there anyone here who has ever heard the Professor’s brain, felt it, touched or smelt it? .. No one appears to have done so. So, according to the established Rules of Empirical, Stable and Demonstrable Protocol, Science says that you have no brain, sir. With all due respect, sir, how do we then trust your lectures?
(The room was silent. The Professor stared at the student, his face unfathomable)
Professor: I guess you’ll have to take them on Faith, son.
Student: That is it, sir.. exactly! The link between man and God is Faith. That is all that keeps things alive and moving!
----------------------------------------------------
That student was Albert Einstein.
Brilliant.
Beautifully done.
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la famille.

2012-01-31T21:23:00.002+08:00

It hurts to know that everything we've tried
to protect them from, it comes and bite us
in the back instead.
I love every single one of you, even your faults.
I don't think many of you realise that,
I'm never once regretted being your senior.

I know how it feels to change section, to know
that whatever you've been familiar with is now
forcefully taken away from you and
all they ever tell you is, "Live with it."

But you can't, of course you'll never,
nothing is ever as easy as it seems.

Life just like that, isn't it?
no matter how hard you try, you'll still feel lost
and rejected, even angry at how fate plays with you.

And all I'm telling you all is,
It's okay.

It's okay to feel like a part of you has been taken away,
the years of bonding is not something you can easily forget.
It's okay to feel lost, or inadequate,
you don't even know how you're gonna survive.

change is not easy. nobody said it was.
hell, you have no idea how much we seniors love you.
but if change is necessary, I guess we just have to accept it.

you don't have to be happy, or agree with it.
you don't have to act like you're not bothered by it.
you don't have to act like you're so strong you don't even mind.

Because we know how it feels like and we're not going to lie.
it hurts.

but somehow or another, the new section will fill the empty hole
and mend the hurt you've been nursing,
and it's like you've always belonged there,
whether you realise it or not.

you take the pain and you carry on, because you know you're
not alone, not matter how much you may deny it.

keep an open mind and heart,
and we'll all grow together through thick and thin.

because no matter what, deep down in your heart you know,
no matter which section you are in,
that we're still nanyang choir as one.

And we're a family.

these times.

2012-01-25T21:15:00.001+08:00

These times will try hard to define me
And I'll try to hold my head up high
But I've seen despair here from the inside
And it's got a one track mind

And I have this feeling in my gut now
And I don't know what it is I'll find
Does anybody ever feel like,
You're always one step behind?

Now I'm sitting alone here in my bed
I'm waiting for an answer I don't know that I'll get
I cannot stand to look in the mirror, I'm failing
I'm telling you these times are hard
But they will

And I know there's someone out there somewhere
Who has it much worse than I do
But I have a dream inside, a perfect life
I'd give anything just to work
It's like I'm only trying to dig my way out
Of all these things but I can't

And I am sitting alone here in my bed
I'm waiting for an answer I don't know that I'll get
I cannot stand to look in the mirror, I'm failing
I'm telling you these times are hard
But they will pass,

They will pass
They will pass
These times are hard
But they will

These times will try hard to define me
But I will hold my head up high

Sitting alone here in my bed
I'm waitng for an answer I don't know that I'll get
I cannot stand to look in the mirror, I'm failing
I'm telling you these times are hard
But they will pass

And I know there's a reason
I just keep hoping it won't be long 'til I see it
And maybe if we throw up our hands and believe it
I'm telling you these times are hard
But they will pass

They will pass
They will pass
These times are hard
But they will pass

by the SafetySuit

a thousand years

2012-01-24T12:09:00.000+08:00

happy chinese new year everyone.
honestly, this public holiday is so delusional.
here I am thinking that we've got such a long
weekend to have fun and basically, well, slack.

but NO.
teachers are always like that.
they never have the same delusional mind as us.
hence the pile of undone homework beside me.

you see, no one ever bothers to understand the teenage mind.

but. I love chinese new year.
bakwa, angbao, lots of orange drinks, poker, mahjong, reunion dinners.
I love my uncle's dogs too. Rufus and Raphael are so cute. :3
And I managed to slack my way through 3 days too.

hah, so there.
I told you no one's going to spoil my favourite time of the year.

it's what comes after that usually kills. :/

I have died everyday waiting for you. Darling don't be afraid
I have loved you for a thousand years, I'll love you for a thousand more.

2012

2012-01-01T23:52:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR DARLINGS.<3

It's 2012,
and no, the world is not going to end this year.
At least, according to the Bible.
Unless the whole world manages to turn against Israel
and the whole of Israel suddenly saw the light.
then well, that's when the world will end.
I don't think one year will have so much drastic changes though.

So. Have a blessed 2012 everyone.<3
I have so many new year resolutions I want to keep,
maybe I'll post it here someday.

for now, I'll just live in self denial that school is not going
to reopen in a day.
sucks to be me.

All the best for the new year everyone, I'm so grateful for
every single one of you.<3
I LOVE YOU.

tata, you don't know how freaking much I miss you.
and the thing is, I don't think you even care.

white christmas

2011-12-25T23:27:00.001+08:00

Well then hello.
Merry Christmas everyone.<3
Thank God for everything and especially, for bringing Jesus to earth.

Be merry everyone. Hope you get lots of presents.
but please. don't forget the true meaning of Christmas.

I'm so tired. gosh. And the year hasn't even started.

all I want for Christmas... is you.

Epinephrine.

2011-12-21T00:09:00.001+08:00

I've tried so hard. so so so hard.
really.
but nothing's working.
maybe, maybe I'm not good enough for you.
but I thought you were different.
I've always thought this: it doesn't matterif the whole
world turned against me,because I would have you.

Guess I was wrong, you turned out to be like the rest.
So you know what. I'm tired. I've ran out of ideas.
I don't know who you are anymore.
why am I the only one trying to pick up the pieces.
but it's too tiring.

I give up on you. I really do.

look, even blair and serena look more like best friends than we do.

On a happier note, I love this: X Factor
it would be really cool to meet them in person.

And I love my cell to bits.
Dinner on a random thursday night at marche.
6 people sharing 3 miserable plates of food just cos we can't afford it.
then walking along orchard road cos we felt like it.
drinking starbucks at 9pm.
bought santa hats to wear during hospitality for church. heehee.
and then panicking cos the stupid mrt broke down and it was 10pm at night.
we might not be the closest or the most perfect cell,
but I love my cell to bits. seriously.

And I had fruitful shopping with jiayu and yihand~
I bought my graces dress yayy. something off my mind at least.
I am proud to say I found it myself :D

And I love dream high.it gives me so much hope.
that maybe someday, my dreams will come true.
love wooyoung and IU.
IU is freaking perfectly gorgeous.
and taecyeon is so hot omg.

the new blogger is awkward. I hate it.

I really don't want the holidays to end T______T
feel like crying just thinking of it.
damn.

信じる

2011-12-11T23:06:00.002+08:00

I've really tried all ways to contact you.
I don't know where are you, what happened,
and why you don't reply my all forms of communication.
I've texted you, tumblred you, tweeted you,
facebook-messaged you,
and you didn't reply a single one of them.
why.
it's not even a question anymore,
because I demanding an answer from you.

And it's not like you're not online.
I see on facebook, twitter and tumblr all the time.
maybe it was something I did.
but I don't know and I can't think of any
reason for you to ignore me.
so please.
explain to me, at least.

I know you're busy.
but I'm your best friend, is it so time-consuming to
spare me a tweet?

maybe I'm overthinking it.
maybe I'm just too sensitive.

but it's been a week darling.
a week.

I didn't know I was that unimportant to you.

okay I'm insecure. I thought you knew that when you said hello.

a random explanation that I owe eliana.
here goes:

I don't know what you might have thought when
I told you that random fact.
that I'm ridiculous/vain/random?
actually I don't really know why I want to be one either.

I just think it's cool to be a model, even just for a day.

I want to experience the glitz and the glamour.
the hustle and bustle backstage. the clothes, the stylists, the designers.
and you go on stage for 30 seconds on that runway.
and for that 30 seconds, everyone's eyes are on you,
all the cameras are flashing. everyone is clapping.

And for that moment, you're flawless.
you're invincible.

I want to experience how that feels.
but pssh, not like that will ever happen.
how can I ever be a model, seriously.

chasing dreams are so hard.

Amaranthine.

2011-12-05T13:04:00.002+08:00

Yes, I'm trying to do my best to make
use of whatever I have left of the holidays.

I seriously dread sec4.

The past month was hectic, work and choir.
I hardly stayed at home.

1 more month, and I shall make good use of it.
I really need time for myself.

11:11

2011-11-11T20:57:00.002+08:00

It's a special day.

Happy 11/11/11 everyone!
I hope you've made your wishes.

I can't help but wonder if someday, 11:11 really does work.

I love you all.<3

May all our dreams and wishes come true,
just like we always believed they would.<3

nostalgia.

2011-11-06T01:11:00.002+08:00

It's late.
and silent.
It's raining
and I'm alone, but not lonely.
I like silence.
And I like rainy nights.
I like hearing the sound of rain outside,
with thunder.
I'm gonna crawl into bed soon
and hope this moment lasts forever.

I love it.

nostalgia chills me to the bones.

illuminati.

2011-11-06T00:05:00.004+08:00

Hi everyone
I realised my last update was on Oct14 oops.
Wow that's seriously really long ago. xD
Look Eliana, I posted! Aren't you proud of me?

Everyone's flying off to China by tomorrow.
I suddenly feel so lost and lonely. ):
It's like, wow, suddenly I'm in charge of the entire choir,
it's making me super stressed out and nervous. D:
I really don't want anyone to get angry, disappointed or
scolded.
There's really so much to do and some, I really can't
achieve with my own effort.
Please choir, please.
We need to rise up and be great.
I believe in every single one of you.<3
Epic High don't worry I'll take care of choir
for you, I promise.<3
Please come back soon lovelies.<3

I'm so sad, all my darlings are GONE.
Ali Nat Bellie Yihand Mathiaaa Ashley, every single one of them
is going off and leaving me all alobe here in Singapore.
Why you do this to me ;______;
I miss them already,
how am I gonna survive two weeks without them?

I shall hide in a corner and cry
and miss everyone like crazy
and keep praying that everything these 2 weeks will
go on just fine.
Gosh I have such an unsettling feeling.
I'm feeling super stressed out right now. argh.
Please, God.
Have mercy on me, I really can't do this alone.

byebye everyone take care please come back soon
i love you all so much.<3
I miss all of you like crazy it just doesn't feel the same.

/forever alone/

sorry for the rant.
I really needed to say that.
'cos I'm really going crazy right now.

So much for the holidays.

take me on.

2011-10-14T23:22:00.002+08:00

Yes it's the EOY period, one more paper
left. which I don't care about, unfortunately.
It's been so long and tiring,
I'm so glad the year is finally coming to an end.
I need a holiday!
I need to find something to make life worthwhile.
I need to do things that I've always wanted to do
but had no courage or will to.

Most importantly, I need a break.
I'm just too tired.

I think I screwed all my papers but I really don't
care anymore.
I told God already, so I know He knows what's
the best for me.

I really need to find myself. somehow.

it's kinda tiring having to try so hard all the time.
and yet, no one realises it.

young

2011-09-05T23:13:00.003+08:00

yep, after much hesitation and long-waiting,
I have eventually done it.
So proud and so happy;
I'll promise to take good care of it and make
sure I learn it properly.:D
so that I can be pro! :D
heehee.

on a side note, I'll trying my hardest to survive
but barely making it.
the dreaded end of the year is here again.
and it freaking sucks. :X

don't act like you know me; i mean every "i love you" that I say. so honestly, just screw off.

a loser like me

2011-08-28T23:18:00.002+08:00

I'm really tired, haven't been feeling well.

on a lighter note, this post is for my darling eliana
because her birthday was 2 days ago.
I love you darling, stay happy forever.<3

/it's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now./

falling to pieces

2011-08-19T18:57:00.003+08:00

HULLO.
I've abandoned my blog for too long hahaha.
Oh well, I'm back. Mainly to rant actually hehh.

Been really tired recently,
and not just due to the lack of sleep.
It's tiring to clear up other people's mess and fix
their broken pieces... you know?
I'm not infallible myself but yet,
I've to do so much and try so hard for others too.
It's really very draining.
It's like I'm doing every single thing myself with no
one offering to stop by and help,
it's really very draining.

yes, in addition to my majorly screwed up block tests,
I've so many overdue homework
and studying for EOYs just can't be fit in.
it really sucks when all your schedule clashes and
all you can do is pray that you'll get through the
next day.

I'm really very tired.
I'm just waiting a week where I can finally
take a breather.

I guess it's just not now.

/so why don't we go, somewhere only we know.<3/

where I belong

2011-08-09T00:29:00.003+08:00

Darling Eliana, I just saw your tag and
because I love you, here's a post for you at 12.34am.

I saw this:

Twelve years ago my parents gave me a Bible for Christmas and over the course of the past decade, wherever I’ve gone, it’s gone with me. The tattered pages are dog-eared and a latticework of highlighter and handwriting cover most of the book itself, a tangled network of discoveries, convictions, confessions, thoughts and questions.

It’s a devotional Bible with bits and pieces of insight written by Max Lucado before and after each chapter. A few nights ago I was snuggled into my bunk on the tour bus about to begin the book of 2 John when Lucado’s well-worded preface sparked a new flicker of perspective like a kitchen match in a dark room.

Here’s what he wrote:

The single most difficult pursuit is truth and love.

That sentence is grammatically correct. I know every English teacher wanted to pluralize it to read: The most difficult pursuits are those of truth and love but that’s not what I meant to say.

True, love is a difficult pursuit. Correct, truth is a tough one, too.

But put them together, pursue truth and love at the same time, and hang on, baby, you’re in for the ride of your life.

But that’s the task of the Christian. Love in truth. Truth in love. Never one at the expense of the other. Never the embrace of love without the torch of truth. Never the heat of truth without the warmth of love.

Never would be easier if we could choose between the two, but we can’t. So John, in this second letter, calls for a hybrid.

“I love all of you in the truth, and all those who know the truth love you. We love you because of the truth that lives in us and will be with us forever. Grace, mercy, and peace from God the Father and his Son, Jesus Christ, will be with us in truth and love.”

2 John 2-3

Truth and love. Love and truth. Never one without the other. To pursue both is our singular task.

A compelling notion but one I’ve never thought too deeply about until now; the idea that truth and love must walk hand-in-hand. Everyone strives to love by all capacities the word includes, and naturally that’s an beautifully admirable thing to pursue, BUT how powerless is love without TRUTH? Applicable to my own life: how often do I worry about living a pure life of love if/when I’m not living the way God has commanded me as a follower of Christ? By all means, I am guilty.

So often I’ve heard quoted something cliche and melodramatic like, “all you need is love” in response to so many of life’s toughest questions and hardest struggles, but sometimes it’s easy to lose focus of that truth-shaped hole, that essential missing puzzle piece that’s required in order to glimpse the bigger picture which demands both love and truth, the latter being life lived as God has commanded.

I spent the night tossing over it and it seems all roads lead to one conclusion. Ultimately, my prayer is that Jesus continue His ever-present work in my heart, change me from the inside out, unearth and kill off those roots of sin, doubt and immorality so that I may better reflect Christ, so that I may better serve Him, so that I may better understand and live the life of love He’s called me to live via truth.

I’m so excited about this.

To Him be glory, greatness and power.

“I ask you that we all love each other. And love means living the way God commanded us to live. As you have heard form the beginning, God’s command is this: Live a life of love.”

2 John 5-6

By http://owlcityblog.com/ No copyright infringement intended.

Eliana darling I'm so glad you're a YOUNGSTER cos this guy is
seriously amazing. :D

Only looking forward; never looking back.
God has the greatest plans in store for me.
#inGodItrust

on a side note,
HAPPY NATIONAL DAY EVERYONE!
I LOVE SINGAPORE.<3
every single thing about Singapore.<3

/I finally revived my blog yayy me./

it was all dahil saiyo.

2011-06-15T15:32:00.002+08:00

an update as promised.

If a picture can say a thousand words then
I think I need not say more.

NYC LINZ 2011.<3
It was all dahil saiyo that we are like a G6,
like a G6.<3

I will never forget, never would forget,
and can never forget.
cos you're just so unforgettable.<3
and irreplaceable.<3

thank you; for letting me be a part of NYC.
it's all God's grace.

like a G6

2011-06-08T09:36:00.002+08:00

HELLO EVERYONE.
I'm finally back after such a long hiatus.(:
okay,
I'm not gonna post about Austria YET.
I'm only gonna post when I find a picture of the
whole choir to go with the post.
SO.
BE PATIENT.
AND WAIT. :D

honestly, I can't believe almost 1 and a half
weeks of my holiday is gone like that.
It didn't occur to me that I've been slowly using
up my holidays.
It's like I've been whisked into this dream
where time just stops and everything that I've
dreamed off is right before my eyes.
It was just so surreal.
and beautiful.
All I can say is it's indescribable.<3
I really wished that dream would never end.<3

Eight days in the most romantic and magical place,
with the most awesome people I could ever wish for.
NYC, AUSTRIA LINZ 2011.
I WILL NEVER FORGET.<3

dahil sa iyo, we're so fly like a G6, like a G6~

if you ever come back.

2011-05-20T22:53:00.002+08:00

HELLO EVERYONE.
sorry haven't been posting lately.
Life's been really really busy,
there's no time for anything and besides,
my life is rather uneventful.
So the most I can crap about is my
far-from-perfect life which is what I'm doing
right now HAHAHAH. xD

gosh I can't believe that in 8 more days,
I'll be flying to Austria already!
I'm damn scared and worried right now,
the feeling of being so unprepared is unnerving,
especially since failure is not an option. D:
IT'S OKAY.
JIAYOU MY DARLING NYC! Let's go to Austria and blow
the other countries' choirs away!~
JIAYOU JIAYOU JIAYOU.<3
we can do it.
we have to.

on a side note, I'm losing my priorities.
Got the highest MSG ever in my life,
so disappointed
and helpless.):
I guess, there's no use crying over spilt milk,
I HAVE TO DO WELL FOR BT2.
I HAVE TO.
screw all those lousy teachers that made me score badly WTF. D<
I shan't specify who HUMPH.

and my eczema's getting worse
I've been faithfully eatng medicine, putting cream, etc
but nothing seems to be working
I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO ANYMORE.
God, heal me, please.

I need a breather,
I'm afraid everything will come crashing down sooner or later.

God, save me.
I need your help, right here right now.

black star.

2011-05-08T18:47:00.002+08:00

HULLO EVERYONE. :D
sorry I haven't been blogging much,
my life has been rather uneventful, just uh busy.
but it's been crazy and still is.

anyway, ytd was general elections! :D
disappointed with some of the results but aye,
WHATEVER, it's not my GRC anyway and too bad for
them if they regret their decision cos they will
have to pay for it for the next 5 years.
Friday's LA lesson was highly amusing though.
and Friday would be the only time in history where
we are chased out of school. xD SO COOL.

nevertheless, RIDING WITH THE LIGHTING!<3

I can't wait for the June hols!
Now's just a mad rush of homework and SIAs and
a million quizzes and workshops for CmPS and choir
and Austria and fun fair (haunted house!! :D).

random spasms, guitar-playing, gossip sessions,
nerf-gun wars, highing over nothing, DANGERRRR!,
Itsuki, passing notes, bubble tea, FRIED FOOD DAY,
keep me sane.

How ironic.

back to my pile of homework GOODBYE.
sorority life y u not working.):

it's okay, we'll survive somehow, like we always do.
but I just need some time to stop,
and start living.

big girls don't cry.

2011-04-29T22:22:00.000+08:00

hello :D
It's been a really busy week and I'm tired
like crap now that it's friday.
The worst thing? It's only gonna get worse
for the next few weeks, I can't even imagine. D:
Just thinking about the piles of homework and SIAs
that I have to do makes me want to DIE already. D:

excited for Linz though!
haven't been so far away without my parents but
I know I'm gonna have a blast.<3
AND. apparently history class MIGHT be going
Europe next year too for GCP which is
SO FREAKING AWESOME.<3
I can't believe we might see the actual artifacts
and stuff zomg AWESOME.<3

on a side note, I made twitter. :D
but I'm regretting it a teeny bit cos it's becoming
a horrible distraction and I already have so many
distractions on the computer. ARGH HOW. D:

I feel like I don't deserve to be a part of nyc,
I feel so freaking useless sometimes.):

all that glitters is more than gold with honours

2011-04-21T21:21:00.002+08:00

HULLO. :D
sorry haven't posted in a while,
was really busy and stuff so I'M BACK NOW. :D
firstly, my birthday OMG.
it was just, indescribable.<3
thank you so much every single one of you,
it's one of the times when I feel absolutely loved
and I don't know what else I can ever do to make you
all feel the same way.
and omg the things you all have done for me,
and even unknown people came up to me to say happy birthday,
I was so surprised, pleasantly surprised,
and very, very touched.
so really, THANK YOU SO MUCH.<3
14/4/2011 I'LL REMEMBER THIS DATE FOREVER.<3

the day of SYF was really, unforgettable.
in the morning all I could think of was how we're
really gonna make this work, no matter how many times
we've failed.
In my heart, I was really so scared and praying hard just
before we went in, 'cos I knew how much this meant to
every single one of us.
On that stage, the last note that we ended with, I knew
that everything was gonna be alright.
that last note was just, magical.<3
I still remembered the way that note echoed throughout the hall
followed by a deafening silence.
yes, it was the stillness.

after I heard the results, I just started crying,
thanking God and everyone for everything in my heart.
It's like, all these months and sweat and tears,
IT WAS ALL WORTH IT.
GOLD WITH HONOURS.
wow.
I couldn't believe it when Nat called.
GOLD WITH HONOURS.
GOLD WITH HONOURS.
GOLD WITH HONOURS.
No matter how much we've doubted ourselves, I always knew we would
made it in the end,
and we did.

thank you so much NYC, it was my first and last SYF,
but the best SYF ever in my life.<3
NYC, a cut above the rest.

These few weeks have been so tiring but so amazing.
I really wish,
I could replay it all over again.

fifteen

2011-04-14T23:51:00.002+08:00

HULLO EVERYONE.
thanks for everything today,
really.
I'm seriously so touched by you all,
it's the first time I've ever felt so loved.
it's been a really unlucky day but
you all just made it seem so much better.

happy 15th birthday to me.<3
thank you everyone for everything,
I really love you all so much.<3

the best day of my life, ever.

you said goodbye.

2011-04-12T21:43:00.002+08:00

HELLO. :D
I'm back here 'cos I'm feeling very sian recently.
I have totally no mood to do any homework or SIAs
and I'm like, AIYA HECK. xD
and yes, I'm feeling very tired.
Drained, in fact.
every single day I'm rushing here and there,
feeling very disorganised and I ALWAYS think that
I forgot to do something or missing out on something.
It's literally,
driving me crazy.

Six more days to SYF.
and I'm getting into the zone.
It's tiring but extremely exciting all at the same time.
Maybe it's because, I know and believe,
We WILL make it.
we're one step closer to living the dream.
Jiayou.<3

and. I'm really not ready to be fifteen.
I can't stand the fact that I'm getting one year older
already when I haven't even enjoyed my last 365 days
as a fourteen-year-old.
ARGH I FEEL SO OLD. D:
I'm so busy that I don't even have time to enjoy my birthday.
And that sucks ttm.):

On a side note, I'm sitting here doing my IH SIA and sulking
about how I can't go to The Script's concert which
is happening RIGHT NOW.
as a miserable replacement, I'm replaying The Script's
songs on youtube and trying to imagine them live on stage.
ARGH MY LIFE SUCKS.)x

'cos when a heart breaks, it doesn't break even.
I'm falling to pieces, yeah.

oppa saranghae.

2011-04-08T22:53:00.002+08:00

HELLO.
YES I AM BACK AGAIN.
I feel such a slacker, been leaving
my homework in a corner and then
coming to the computer and spazz.
SIGH I FEEL SO DISAPPOINTED WITH MYSELF.
and I'm even more disappointed with my
math results! D: I put so much effort into
studying for it and still get a crappy mark.):
and some idiots get like A1??
ARGH SO DEMORALISING. D:

omg TEN more days to SYF.
and as Cheryl puts it, "We must feel the TEN-sion!!!"
and heck yeah,
I do.
so freaking much.
every single second I'm thinking how SYF is so near.
10 DAYS.
TEN DAYS.
18 APRIL 2011.

I'm busy but for all the right reasons,
I hope I'll be able to complete my tasks quickly,
and my dear group WE CANNOT SCREW CMPS!
WE HAVE TO JIAYOU OKAY. even though we're way behind schedule.
but we can do it! JIAYOU PROJECT INTERCHANGE.<3

on a side note, it's 8 April today.
which means it's Jonghyun's birthday! :D
happy jonghyun day to everyone! :D
and yes, my dear jiayu toot, this is for you.<3

and something random, should I get Twitter?
Everyone's been telling me to get Twitter but I'm afraid
I'll have too many distractions on the computer. O:
oh well. ELIANA DARLING I LOVE YOU.<3

I will survive.
somehow.
I promise I will.

fan into flame.

2011-04-07T21:08:00.002+08:00

HULLO. :D
I'm back here again only after such
a short while HAHAHA.
sigh it's not that I'm free but I'm
just so sick and tired of doing anything
that has anything with school. -_-
so I'm just screwing the pile of
homework waiting there for me and slacking
my butt here at the computer. xD
HAHAH OMG I FEEL SO BAD. D:

life's not that bad now that blocks are over,
even though SYF is in 11 days OMG. D:
but 313 and choir mates are keeping me in
high spirits WHOO. :DDD
every single day something epic just happens
and I just laugh my head off all the time.
I think I've grown abs from laughing. xD

sigh life's hard and there's so many freaking
things to worry about but you know what,
for the first time,
I really feel that everything's gonna turn out fine.<3

And I know it will.
I really believe it will.

tata jiayou for SYF tmr. go for gold!

honey.

2011-04-02T09:55:00.002+08:00

HULLO EVERYONE.
sorry for the long hiatus.
in fact, I'm not even supposed to be here.
But I decided that I shouldn't abandon my
blog for too long.(:

it's been a crazy week with blocks and
omg, WHY DO WE STILL HAVE HOMEWORK, and a thousand
other stuff. I literally crashed into bed
last night and FINALLY got some rest.
and yes, here I am wasting time when I should get
started on my 3 revolutions.
very productive indeed. -_-

so next week and the other weeks that come ahead
would continue to be crazy weeks and to be honest,
I'm really tired already.
But oh well, I'm looking forward to June. ^^

and to clear the misconception.
the italics in the previous post isn't meant for
any of you reading.
I don't know her and she doesn't know me either.
unless she stalks me. but yes, it's not referring
to any of you or anyone you know. thanks.

4 days to end of blocks.
16 days to SYF.
57 days to Austria.

dates, what do they actually mean?
the beginning of someone's life and the end of another?
or just a representation of another day you have
to get through?

on a side note, I like honey. :DDD
and ben&jerry's are just awesome.<3

timestopping.

2011-03-19T22:30:00.003+08:00

Omg I have only one thing to say.
I AM SO SCREWED. D:
I have tons of homework, and SIAs
to worry about.
Block tests which I haven't even
started studying for.
Proposals and projects I need to keep revising.
And SYF practices that require complete
concentration and intensity and of course, practice.
I honestly don't know how I'm going to pass
my blocks considering how under-prepared I am
for it. D:
like I said, I am so screwed. D:
OMG JUST SCREW MY LIFE SERIOUSLY. D<

God, please I really really really need your help. I can't do this alone.

dream.

2011-03-15T16:05:00.002+08:00

I was a little girl
Alone in my little world
Who dreamed of a little home for me
I played pretend between the trees
And fed my houseguests bark and leaves
And laughed in my pretty bed of green

I had a dream
That I could fly
From the highest swing
I had a dream

Long walks in the dark
Through woods grown behind the park
I asked God who I'm supposed to be
The stars smiled down at me
God answered in silent reverie
I said a prayer and fell asleep

I had a dream
That I could fly
From the highest tree
I had a dream

-lyrics from Dream

leave with trace; junko.

2011-03-12T12:46:00.002+08:00

HULLO.
so, I'm back from OBS and omg,
I SURVIVED.
I FREAKING SURVIVED OBS.
*takes a bow*

OBS was, to put it simply, indescribable.
there were the high times when time just
stops and everyone was laughing like mad
you don't even know what you're doing anymore.
and then there were the low points,
the times when giving up was just so easy,
to take a step back and just say I don't
want to do it anymore. and the fear that you're
really not gonna make it, cos you have totally
no control of everything and you can only close
your eyes and pray.

my brain is so disoriented from the sun (minor sunburns)
and the rain and the tiredness and my aching body (with rashes :X).
So I shall attempt to summarise OBS as concise
and precise as possible.

FIRST DAY.
junko junko junko<3. dread. tired. belay practice.
omg hurricane at night. tent leaked like crap at 4am.
talked nonsense and we were like SCREW IT and slept
on our wet sleeping bags.

SECOND DAY.
unpitching the tent was absolutely disgusting.
height element. muddy logs that swings violently.
level 2 - hi-five jiayue! rain again. we saw chickens yayy.
kayaking lesson. OMFG WE TOOK 3H TO GET FROM CAMP1
TO CAMP2 LOL. capsizing and rescuing. night in the jungle.
prickly heat and insect repellent. created a dead flying
ants collection in our tent. pitch dark and stuffy.

THRID DAY.
land expedition. trekking 10km. 20kg backpacks that caused me
to almost topple over. mapping out checkpoints.
walking step by step. looking straight. german girl shrine.
jetties. celestial resort. A FREAKING BROOD OF HORNBILLS
OMG WE ARE SO LUCKY<3. stupid rain that stopped the moment
we put on our ponchos and started the moment we took them
off WTH. highest point in palau ubin. the amazing quarry
that echos. took over to trek and finally reached our camp.
amazing wind and sea beside our campside. OMFG I HATE THE
FREAKING STUPID ANTS. ants infested our backpacks and bit
holes into our food. had to throw away half our food.):
MOST AWESOME DINNER EVER<333. Mathea and her annoying sarcarsm.
Ashley and her crazy spasms. Everyone was highing and doing
something epic in one way or another. instant noodles.
laughed like crap until we couldn't eat. AN AMAZING AWESOME
FABULOUS EPIC COOL HIGH DINNER<3333333333333333333333333333
wild boar watch at night. shooed people to sleep. random
karaoke malay music at night from some stupid ship that woke
me up. some people saw a wild boar ZOMG.

FOURTH DAY.
sea expedition. woke up at 4am to start preparing and moving
kayaks. set off at the first sunrise. paddled and paddled.
damn you wind and waves. kept pushing us backwards.
drifted far away cos some idiot changed the kayak's direction
and we couldn't go the right way. RESCUED! THANK GOD.
jiayue and I were struggling like mad but we still managed to
complete it. thank you and so so so sorry jiayue for everything<3.
rained AGAIN. JETTY JUMPED OMG<333. salty but warm sea water. saw
cute and pink jellyfish (5 of them). highed and sarcarm again. xD
tired out like crap but we went to eat and had a
long shower (at last). RED ANTS INFESTED OUR BAGS AGAIN WTF.
walked in the rain so many times that it was like bathing again.
AWESOME DINNER AT NIGHT AGAIN<3. vegetable soup with carrots,
onions, cabbage, mushrooms. long beans fried with eggs. cooked
and uncooked luncheon meat. tangs orange drinks. APPLE CRUMBLE.<333
awesome night indoors cos it was raining. first night I actually
had sleep.

LAST DAY.
): but looked forward to going home. APPLE CRUMBLE AGAIN FOR
BREAKFAST<3. packed the store and stuff. played games in the morning.
OUR FLOWER OF LOVE<3. did more debriefing and stuff. last class to
go home and we were all pissed but high-ing like crazy. xD
ELIANA OUR AWESOME RECYCLING BAG<3 WE ARE SO FREAKING SPECIAL.<3
macs with yihan yilin vivan chiang and eli<3 talked and laughed like
crap together and then FINALLY WENT HOME.

OBS is like I said, indescribable.
cos it's personal - emotionally, mentally and physically.
you can never have the same thoughts or feelings as anyone
else, it's your own emotions, own mind, own body.
But the most important thing that I realised is,
I'm stronger than what I think.
and it's so very comforting.<3
who says that skinny people can't do things that others
can, who says that we're weaker than the rest?

OBS taught me this: never discount yourself cos I'm
stronger than what I think. and I can freaking overcome
everything as long as I put my mind to it, no matter
how hard or tiring it is.
to finally reach the end point is such a satisfying
and fulfilling feeling, you feel so accomplished; it's
like you can take on the world.

and of course, not to mention my awesome Junko watchmates.<3
the encouragement, the fun times, the fustrating times, etc.
they'll all be remembered now and forever.<3 the bond you form
won't break so easily and everything I go through seems so much
easier cos I know all of them will catch me when I fall.<3
we're all going through the same thing and it feels like
nothing's gonna ever bring us down.<3

so if you ask me if I enjoyed OBS, I can only say,
it's indescribable.
but if you ask me if I would go to OBS again, I would say,
hell yeah.

'cos the real outward bound journey starts now.

your name.

2011-03-06T20:29:00.003+08:00

HULLO.
it's been a really long week and I'm
so glad it's over.
Not that I'm particularly excited to go
to OBS tmr though.
Everyone keeps telling me that it'll be
fun and to keep and open mind but
all I want is to hide under my blanket
and rot for the next five days.

the experience or the slack-ness?
Honestly, I prefer the latter.

Okay it's not like I'm some spolit rich brat
that screams at everything they see.
I just don't get the point of paying $500++
just to get dirty and tortured.
You know what I mean?

Oh well, not like I have a choice in this matter
anyway, all I can do is cross my fingers and wish
that everything turns out better then I thought it will.
No rain helps too.
So does no insect bites.
And I do NOT want sunburns.
or my ezcema to be inflamed.

ARGH. OKAY MAKE THAT 100000000 WISHES THAT I NEED
TO HELP ME GET THROUGH THESE FIVE DAYS.

come on huilee, you're gonna survive.
I hope.

on a side note, take care in China, Abby.<3
WE WILL MISS YOU.
and I will pray that God blesses you
with awesome chinese!

and.
I look forward to bonding with 313. :D

and yes Cristina, you better pray that I survive you turtle. xD

OKAY I SHALL END HERE.

I LOVE YOU ALL.<3
DON'T MISS ME COS I WILL SURVIVE!<3

I just had to post this.

2011-02-26T13:03:00.001+08:00

sometimes, we forget the simplest and prettiest
things in life.

we'll make it through somehow, I promise.<3

on stable ground.

2011-02-25T21:27:00.002+08:00

HULLO. :D
omg yes it's finally friday.<3
I absolutely love friday nights!
sigh sec 3's so busy and sometimes I can
just randomly blank off in class. D:
I know that is really bad but sometimes
I'm really too sian to concentrate.):
andand block test one is coming OMG.
I can't even imagine having to find time
to study for it.
wow thanks a lot my dear school,
thanks for changing the bt1 such that it's
not one week one test anymore,
and thanks for giving the schedule so late.
(sense the sarcasm. -_-)

I don't know how to find time to study
now that I have SYF practices and BTs
all at the same time. OMGGG. SOMEONE KILL ME. D:

at least, I'm busy for a good thing.
ah well, as kheng said,
we will make it through, somehow.

sigh I guess I'll make it through somehow.
It's hard I know,
sometimes I don't even know whether I can do it,
but maybe, just maybe,
there is light at the end of the tunnel after all.

hi eliana, I know you can sing, darling.<3

need you now.

2011-02-16T19:31:00.002+08:00

HULLO. :D
sigh it's been a really busy week and
somehow I need to destress so here I am.(:
firstly,
went to my uncle's house last Sat and
he has two dogs that are damn cute. :D
they are actually triplets but the other sibling
lives with their parents.
And Sat was their birthday!
omg damn cute lah.<3
but I hate it when they bark.
which they do, a lot in fact, but they're still cute. :D

Monday was Valentine's Day
and this year was the best Valentine's Day ever.<3
For once, I actually received a lot of sweets
and chocolates!
thank you so much you all, I'm really touched.<3
ah there are really so many nice people
in the world. ^^

sigh this week and next week is gonna be crazy
and I think I'm really gonna tear my hair out
soon ARGH but I don't want to start balding
so I shall exercise self-control. xD

zomg I can't stand it when people keep telling
me that I'm very skinny.
HELLO?? I GET THE POINT HERE. IT'S NOT LIKE I DON'T
HAVE EYES TO SEE. -_- but it's really not
my fault that I have light bones/cannot grow fat okay!
RAWRRRRRR. D<
I'm seriously going to whack the next person
that tells me that again. D<

Jiayou everyone.<3
you know what, I really really really believe
that we'll be able to make it through and get
results so much more than what we expected.
JIAYOU AND I LOVE YOU ALL.<3

back to work.
BUAI.

gold with honours.

2011-02-13T01:01:00.003+08:00

HULLO. :D
so, went for the ESIP test today and
the test was... kinda unexpected?
I don't know how to describe it, but yeah.
all I can do now is cross my fingers and
pray hard that I get it though. SIGH. D:

this weekend is super extra busy but I guess
I should get used to this kind of life.
it's after CNY and there's really nothing to look
forward to anymore.
maybe june holidays?
but I doubt it'll be any different, or even worse,
than normal school days. Like always.

JIAYOU NYC~<3
I think friday was really useful. :D
Jiayou darlings~ WE ARE A CUT ABOVE THE REST!
WE CAN DO IT!
NYC.<3 EPIC HIGH.<3
okay I should probably stop brooding and get to sleep
soon ARGH. my life sucks terribly.):

on a side note: HI ELIANA.<3

the last dance

2011-02-05T23:12:00.002+08:00

HULLO EVERYONE.
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR(RABBIT) 2011~ :D
hope you all are enjoying this awesome weekend!
I think this long weekend has been
a really good break for me, for once
I can just slack and not worry about the
piles of homework tha never fail to bother me.
it's just that feeling, that unsettling feeling yes?
so I'm really grateful for the break even
though after this break it's gonna be ZOMG.
but let's enjoy it while it lasts.(:

I'm been eating like mad the past few days
already but I don't seem to feel any heavier.
ARGH. my weight-gaining plans never work.
is there such thing as lipo-insertion LOL. xD
anyway, CNY GOODIES ARE ALWAYS THE BEST ZOMG.<3
I WISH IT WAS CNY EVERY SINGLE DAY.<3

was debating with a certain someone
about humans and sciences people.
most people think that humans people are stupid
BUT HELLO??
WITHOUT HUMANS PEOPLE, SCIENCE PEOPLE WON'T EVEN EXIST GOSH.
HUMANS PEOPLE ARE AS GOOD AS SCIENCE PEOPLE
OR EVEN WAY BETTER THAN THEM LUH!!!
it annoys me to think that people living in
this age still has such an outdated mindset. D<
don't worry huiyuan, I won't whack that person
just yet.

ENJOY YOUR LAST DAY PEOPLE~
HAPPY CNY!<3

turn it in and dream

2011-02-01T22:36:00.002+08:00

yes, I've finally submitted my LA personal essay
after spending so much time editing and worrying
about it.

you know what, I've decided that it doesn't matter
what marks I get, my belief can never be graded
nor underestimated by academic pressure.
It annoys me to think that teachers are so eager to
grade every single thing, even something as personal
as this, as subjective as this.
do they even realise that they are making me doubt
my very own belief? because I don't know what's right
or wrong anymore. I maybe giving the teachers what they
want, but it won't be my voice would it?

gosh, screw this essay. D<

yes, why would we not be as worried as you?
we want this too, I don't know about the rest,
but I want it so badly.
I want to protect the name of us and to make sure
that we never fail. I'm trying, I really am.
But sometimes, trying isn't the only thing we have to do.
the worse thing is, I don't know what else I can do.
cos when you cried, I was trying so hard to hold back my tears.):

hope everyone enjoys their CNY celebration tmr~
have fun darlings.<3

more than a drizzle.

2011-01-28T21:50:00.002+08:00

HULLO EVERYONE! :D
omg yes, friday is finally here
and CNY IS NEXT WEEK WOOTS~<3
I seriously cannot wait for it luh!
ah, the angbaos, fun and especially THE FOOD.
YESYES. FOOD, I'LL BE WAITING FOR YOU. xD

haha today had class breakfast during PCCG.
there was A LOT of food but we finished most of
them after school already.^^
so we spammed kpop and KJ WAS LIKE SUPER TRAUMATIZED,
so we offered to play denglijun or feiyuqing for him
HAHAH. ZOMG.
DAMN EPIC CAN. xDDD

today was quite slack but the homework is O.O
considering that I'm already quite busy this weekend,
I HAVE NO TIME TO STUDY FOR QUIZZES. D:
oh well, I guess I have to chiong my homework asap. O:

jiayue and co. went to stalk suju today LOL.
hope they managed to catch a glimpse of them! :D
oh yes, for the many people I know going to SS3,
HAVE FUN YEAH. :D

omg tumblr is way too pretty.<3
I seriously wish I could print every single thing out
and keep them forever.<3
TUMBLR.<3

ELIANA, DSLRS AND POLARIODS!<333

EPIC HIGH, HAMBURGERS AND FISHBALLS!<333

ah, life's tiring and lessons suck,
but with friends, everything's so much more worth it.(:

repeat in history.

2011-01-21T22:24:00.002+08:00

so,
another week flew past again,
I think I'm starting to get used to school
and into the study mode now.

life's kinda okay,
I love 313 and the people in there,
everytime I talk to them,
it just seems like everyone's known each other for ages
and it's just so comfortable talking to everyone.<3

sec3 life's getting really busy,
I don't know how I'm gonna cope,
but I guess I'll do it in some way or another.
We'll go through this together somehow.(:

I miss everyone.
past and present.

stolen.

2011-01-14T21:25:00.003+08:00

HULLO DARLINGS. :D
oh gosh it's been a really long week,
and it's finally FRIDAY!
TGIF. :D
school's getting busier by the minute
and time is literally crawling every
single school day. -_-
ANDAND HOMEWORK.)x
yes, we have so much homework and it's
only the second week gosh!
proposals, SIAs, etc are already piling up
which sucks ttm.):
how on earth am I going to survive the year.O:

yup so, just wanted to say,
JIAYOU EVERYONE. :D
it's just the beginning and it's too early
to give up just yet.
we'll be fine, I promise.(:

CmPS is kinda screwed oh no,
never mind, we will work it out in the end like
we always do HAHAH. xD

and JIAYOU NYC!<3

But you left in the end after all.
yes, I would die for you baby,
but you won't do the same.

repeat in history

2011-01-08T15:05:00.003+08:00

HULLO :D
so well, the first week of school
in 2011 just passed already.
It's been a really long week
(I don't know why) and when yesterday
came, I was like TGIF-it's-finally-friday
kind of feeling. xD

anyway, I met most of my teachers,
some fortunate and sadly, unfortunate ones
too, but I still look forward to
a great year ahead learning new stuff! :D

And I can't believe it too,
but the homework's starting to come in ALREADY.
like HELLO?! IT'S ONLY THE FIRST WEEK OF SCHOOL.
not like I can do anything about it,
so I guess I'll rather spend the time
doing my work SIGH.

sorry but I think it's really silly
that our homework is ungraded now,
I can't imagine the results I have to face
especially with subjects like LA and math which I count
on daily assignments to pull me up. -_-
gosh why didn't they consult us first!)x

okay whatever,
all I know is, I'll have to work harder than ever
and it's gonna be a really long year. D:

Not that the flu + cough I've caught is going to help me.
Gosh, life sucks.):

start the magic

2011-01-03T22:09:00.002+08:00

hello! :D
oh well, school's starting tomorrow
and I'm feeling so weird inside,
not like butterflies fluttering around
or anything, but just a weird sick feeling
without bringing any sort of extreme
emotion whatsoever.
I guess this is just another case of the
back-to-school blues. D:

in any case,
we can't stop time,
so let's just hold our head up high,
pull back a smile and get on with life.
nothing's ever as bad as it seems
so let's stay positive shall we?(:

I really don't know what to expect as
I step into the school tomorrow,
as a Sec3 for the very first time,
it could take some time getting used to,
and I have plenty of time for that.
for now,
let me just think happy thoughts and
brace myself for a (hopefully, excellent) new year
ahead.

2011, let the magic begin.<3

iLOVE 2010

2010-12-31T21:27:00.002+08:00

HULLO EVERYONE! :D
haha firstly, happy last day of 2010!
I can't believe it's going to be 2011
in just a few hours' time,
so scary so scary~
LOL.

anyway, I just came back from camp today!
iLOVE camp 2010,
ilove, do you?
whoo I'm damn tired but happy.(:
I think it's such a good experience and the
best way to end 2010.(:
I LOVE:
FANTASY TRIBE WHOO!
CHRONICLES OF NARNIA! (the best group ever)
and everyone else~ :D
at first I was quite sian to go camp especially
since it's the last week of hols,
but I'm glad I went after all. (:
THANK YOU EVERYONE IN iLOVE CAMP!<3
see you all tmr~ :D

so.
it's 31st December once again,
which marks the end of the year 2010.):
I can't believe we've lived through a decade already. D:
it really doesn't feel like new year,
it's like suddenly, WHAM, hi huilee welcome to 2011
and I don't even know how I got there.
I guess the feeling of finality is really creeping in now,
the feeling of knowing it's time to get my act together.

I want to say,
thank you to everyone for everything this year 2010,
it's been a really memorable year
and I want to thank everyone who had a part in it.(:

This year has been disappointing in many ways,
and it has been a year full of struggle and difficulty,
not to mention regret, loss and sorrow.
But it's time to leave all these behind,
and try to make 2011 a much better year. :D

on a brighter side,
this year has been really memorable,
from Skylark to Dramafest to every single normal
day in school with darling 211,
every single day was just so precious.<3
omg I can't believe I'm really going to be leaving 211
for real.):
the feeling of walking into our familiar classroom,
hearing the kpop spamming,
saying GOOD MORNING loudly. xD
I guess,
my darling 211,
this is really goodbye.
remember, this is just a beautiful beginning.
211'10, we leave our mark indefinitely.

so anyway,
it's time for 2011.
no matter how much we deny it,
time doesn't stop for us.
I know it's going to be tough,
but just trust yourself 'cos we can do it no matter what.
so let's look forward to the new year with an
open mind and heart
and welcome whatever it might bring. :D

JIAYOU EVERYONE AND
HERE'S WISHING YOU A VERY HAPPY 2011 NEW YEAR! :D

2011, this is the year we're gonna make history.

寂寞寂寞就好

2010-12-23T21:29:00.003+08:00

HELLO! :D
oh man I can't believe tmr's christmas eve
already. D:
gosh time really flies,
after next week, we'll be starting 2011 already! O:
anyway, went to cut my hair today,
so that I won't look too weird when school
reopens hehh. xD

I guess I shall TRY to make full use of
the remaining time this holiday.(:
oh no, when school reopens,
I'm going to have a hard time getting out of this holiday mood.
maybe I should start early. O:

okay BUAI. :D

我寂寞寂寞就好
這時候誰都別來安慰擁抱
就讓我一個人去痛到受不了
想到快瘋掉死不了就還好

shining.

2010-12-21T21:21:00.002+08:00

HULLO. :D

I'm posting cos someone say I must post,

so here I am.(:

haha today was a fun day whee. :D

went to Nex with limjiayu and you know

what, we walked finish the whole place and

my legs don't even hurt.

I'm so proud of us whee. xD

haha I didn't buy anything but doesn't matter. xD

jiayu bought stuff anyway.(:

hahah you toot, I hope you didn't get scolded by your mom. xD

andand fyi, I have no more glitter on my hands

and I WANT MORE ICE CREAM HEEHEE. :D

yayy love you toot!:D

oh man, I hate having sore throats. D:

I wonder how I'm gonna survive tmr.

crown of love.

2010-12-17T23:16:00.003+08:00

HULLO. :D

haha today was damn epic. xD

omt that was way a lot of sushi but I had a

really fun time especially with 2 aunties that

always leave plastic covers on the conveyor belt and

I had to scream at them to take them off lol. xD

oh gosh, today was another epic day,

I can't wait for next year to work with you all again.(:

hope next year we'll be even more awesome okay. :D

once again, happy birthday to cheryl tham and estelle.(:

hope you two have an awesome 14th birthday. :D

ohmy the sec3 textbooks are expensive and thick

I don't know how I'm gonna cope next year oh crap. D:

I guess, I'll have to go with the flow.

this mix-match is dizzying.

oh well. BYE FOR NOW.(:

maybe we're trying to hold,

maybe we're torn apart,

maybe we're empty. we're empty.

lock and key.

2010-12-16T17:33:00.003+08:00

HULLO. :D
zomg the holidays are flying past and I
seriously don't know what to do to make it
more meaningful or even, interesting.
Each day just flies past like that,
and I haven't even had the time to enjoy it.
oh gosh my holidays are a disaster.):
to think that school is starting in about 2 weeks
OH NO. D:

oh well, on to happier things,
went to CSI The Experience with tata on mon
and it was damn fun can! ^^
but I think the entrance fees are a bit expensive
but it was quite cool,
and the cases very easy to solve eh xD
but oh well, you should go if you want to,
it's a good experince. :D

woots I have a feeling that tmr is going to be another
epic day. xD
kheng, let's eat up the whole shop okay! *hi-five*
WHOOHOO. :D

oh well, I have to make the best out of whatever
that's left.
I can do it, I know I can.

BUAIBUAI. :D

there are too many locks, not enough keys.

onew(:

2010-12-14T23:57:00.001+08:00

happy birthday onew~

may you stay clumsy and cute and awesome as always.(:

SHINee HWAITING!!

paper.

2010-12-12T23:38:00.002+08:00

I guess I'm just so insignificant sometimes,

like no matter what I do,

it just goes unnoticed,

no matter how much heart and soul I put into it.

no matter what I say or do,

I'm like air - invisible and negligible.

but it's so hurting to know that I'm so unimportant,

like the world will be more than happy without me.

I guess I could get used to being so dispensable.

maybe I am used to it already.

glimmer glass

2010-12-08T13:06:00.003+08:00

HELLO. :D

so as you've seen, I changed my bs.(:

I think I'll grow to like it as I always do.

so anyway,

I don't think I'll post about choir camp

cos there's way too much things to say.

I don't like writing super long posts and bore

people to sleep. (not that anyone's reading anyway)

but I'll remember,

every single thing, every single moment,

playing and replaying like a 3 day movie in my head.

thank you so much, I know I'm going through this

journey with such awesome people.(:

the tears, laughter and hard work will all be worth it

with all of you beside me, I believe that.

"it's just singing, right?"

no, it's not just singing,

it's the process of growing, and learning and working

hard and striving together for the same goal

with the same passion,

so that with every ending note,

it's like the whole world stopped with a neverending applause.

such is the joy of a chorister. I don't think anyone will understand it.

it's going to be one long and ardous journey,

we all know that,

but you know what, I'm actually looking forward to it,

'cos I'm doing it with each and every one of you.

EPIC HIGH FTW.

llamas, queen's restaurant, marshmallows,

baby baby baby oooooh, bathing time, karaoke,

ostrich handshake.

all these, I'll keep in my heart forever. I promise.

I'm gone, but I'll be back.

last but not least,

I love you all.

more than you can ever imagine.

~~omg I really feel like slapping you. okay, not "feel", I WANT TO.~~

sunsets fade to black.

2010-12-05T23:57:00.002+08:00

HULLO PEOPLE.(:
haha okay I'm not gonna post about the
camp just yet cos I'm lazy to, and I probably need
a lot of time to.
so, NOT TODAY. xD
anyway, went shopping today! ^^
the previous week was so awesome.<3
I enjoyed every single day of this week.<3
I'm just hoping that the next few weeks will be just as awesome! :D
just when I'm starting to feel like it's the
holidays, time just flies past again.
It never seems to follow how we want it to be,
does it?
oh well, let's enjoy our last few weeks! :D
OMG I DON'T WANT TO BE SEC3.
I DON'T WANT TO DIE YET. *cries*

if you close your eyes,
cross your fingers and count to ten,
time will never end,
it will never end.

we found our way back into love.

2010-12-03T22:26:00.004+08:00

HULLO. :D

haha I'm back from camp! :D

omg IT WAS SOOOOOOO FUN. (Y)

EPIC HIGH FTW!!

this is probably the best camp ever!

anyway, I'll update more about the camp

soon cos I'm damn tired now and my body hurts

like crap due to PT . D:

and I think I didn't sleep last night. xD

anyway. I LOVE NYC TTM.

I LOVE YOU SEC4 SENIORS,

WE WILL MISS YOU MORE THAN YOU CAN

EVER IMAGINE.

I think the best thing is,

I realised that I'm not going through this journey

alone and I'm really thankful about that.

yes, darlings, we found our way back into love;

no, we found a lot more than we could ever expect.

maybe we're replacable.

2010-11-26T23:28:00.002+08:00

HULLO. :D
had a really tiring day 'cos
okay it's a long story so nevermind.
so anyway, went to the Sitex IT FAIR at expo
and I bought a new laptop! ^^
I spent most of the day there trying to find
the best laptop possible that wasn't too
expensive and walked around and around and around.
And did I mention how freaking far expo is from my house. -_-
at least I did buy something after all so it
wasn't a wasted trip. :D
it isn't a pretty laptop,
but it functions well so that's the most
important thing I guess,
and it is my first laptop so I shall take good care of it. :D

haha CmPS meeting tmr again. ^^
these few days are gonna be busy,
but it's a type of "busy" that I welcome.(:

okay bye. I think I'll have an eventful day tmr. xD

OMG I'm getting a step closer.
it's scary but I hope it'll be fine. O:

but we're drawing with light.

2010-11-25T15:11:00.002+08:00

hello. ^^
haha amazing but true, I have no practice
today! :D lol my legs and voice are seriously dead.
and my conductor cancelled this fri's and next tues'
prac which means...
YAYY I CAN GO FOR CLASS OUTING! (Y)
ZOMG MS LIM I LOVE LOVE LOVE YOU!<333
I'm really happy that I can go for our first (and hopefully,
not last) class outing.(:
hahah gosh, I LOVE HER.<333

I'm one of the planners for food for class outing. ^^
haish that's so much stuff to buy and do,
but I hope everyone will have a good time.(:
and thanks everyone for your help!
I really really appreciate it.(:

whee went to the library today and borrowed
a few books.(:
finally, I think I'm actually starting to have
a proper holiday. :D

yes, I think I'm a happy girl. ^^

~~the worst thing that could happen is to lose yourself.~~

ablowing.

2010-11-22T19:57:00.002+08:00

HELLO. :D
so our performance on Sat was okay
I guess.(:
but maybe, we could have done better?
I don't know.
wow, I can't believe it's the starting
of the SYF journey already.
time really flies, and before we know it,
it'll all be over again.
so,
Jiayou everyone~
let's enjoy the experience. (Y)
it's gonna be so worth it.

OMG I LOVE MY GROUP.
EVERYONE IS SO EPIC.
shiying you scandalous woman. *wink wink*
HAHAH. I LOVE YOU ALL.<3

WELCOMEHOMEDEAR.<3
hahaha GOSHYOU'REFINALLYBACK. :D

it's in you.

2010-11-19T21:49:00.003+08:00

hello.(:
so I got my class allocations and
I'M IN 313.
haha I kinda like the sound of my class.
three-thirteen sounds nice right?(:
anyway, I don't know a lot of people who are in my class. D:
I'VE NEVER EVEN HEARD OF THEIR NAME BEFORE. O:
oh well.
I'm glad that I know quite a few nice people in this class,
I think this class will turn out to be awesome.(:
Sure, it's not my dream class,
but I'll have to move on, won't I?
I know,
someday, somewhere, some place,
there will be miracles in store just for me.
Somehow, I just know 313 would be awesome.(:
I'm quite glad to be in this class actually,
there are many other worse options.
actually, I don't even know what I'm feeling.
excited? nostalgic? expectant?
I don't know.
I guess I still can't believe that I'm moving on.
To leave behind a happy ending and
to start a new beautiful beginning.
but I guess the reality just hasn't hit yet.

I should have known things weren't meant to last forever.

haunting.

2010-11-18T13:02:00.002+08:00

HELLO. :D
it doesn't really feel like a holiday but
in a way it does.(:
I guess the holiday mood hasn't kicked in yet. O:
but anyway I love the feeling of not having to go to school.(:
that's the best thing about the holidays.<3

I'm planning out a list on what to do during
the holidays. :D
hopefully I'll be able to complete my missions!
anyway, subject combinations came out and most
people got what they wanted.(: congrats!
omg I don't want the class allocations to come out
on friday! D:
it would mean my illusion of being in 211 forever will be broken.
But I guess,
it's time to move on.
Or maybe not.
I shall hide under my blanket forever and pretend
this world doesn't exist.

It is in you, to carry on
It is in you, to lay down fears that hold
It is in you, to find your way home

you're the only one worth the risk.

2010-11-13T23:10:00.003+08:00

HELLO. :D
I have only one thing to say:
today was damn epic. (Y) :D
tham ah, *ahem ahem*.
shiying ah, tsk you ah. *ahem ahem*
lol you know what,
we'll work this out, don't worry okay people.<3
it's all gonna work out somehow,
I promise.(:
eh we should have a food marathon one day! :D
I think you people are the best group members ever. :D
PROJECT INTERCHANGE FTW!<3

I'd like to sing in the rain someday.

we'll be together forever.

2010-11-12T21:35:00.002+08:00

HELLO.(:
okay today was really the last day of school.
I'm so glad sabbats are over! (Y)
now I have time to stay at home and do whatever
stuff I want. :D
but yet again,
it's our last day of school which also means
the last day with my darling 211. D:

I guess, I really don't know what to say.
Writing all 32 of your letters made me realise
that I'm gonna miss so much more than I
ever expected.
I know one A4-sized colored paper is never gonna
be enough for all the memories we had,
so I'll just keep the rest in my heart for eternity then. ^^

I'm not gonna start an emo post about how
we're not gonna see each other anymore, etc.
'cos I DON'T WANT THAT TO HAPPEN.
I know, believe and trust that 211 will forever
be as close and bonded as we are now.<3
I know that.
211, will you promise me that?(:

We must eat lunch together and have regular class
outings okay! :D
I don't care what other people say about how
everyone's gonna drift apart and stuff,
we're 211, we're different,
and we'll do and keep things the way we want it to be.(:

You know what,
I really wish that one day,
we'll have an island called 211 and
we'll all live there with our families
and we'll have our own government, jobs etc,
and we'll watch the sunset together everyday,
and live happily ever after.<3

so I just want to say:
thank you to every single person I have ever
met in sec1 and 2,
thank you for making these 2 years one of
the best years ever.<3
without any of you, I won't be who I am today
so thank you so much for everything,
I LOVE YOU.<3 :D
TO ME,
ALL OF YOU ARE PERFECT. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF YOU.

hellodear.takecareandcomehomesoon.<3
it'sonlybeen5days.): andhowcanyounotkeep
yourpromise.tsk.

you know what, this is not a happy ending,
just a very beautiful beginning.
do you believe that?
I do.

pictures of you; pictures of me

2010-11-09T20:52:00.002+08:00

HULLO. :D
so yeah, sabbats week started.
speech training is actually not bad. ^^
I love the teacher.<3
and fuel cell was changed to some electronics
and it was just plain -_-.
going to school IS a waste of time okay.
and I can't believe other classes are going to malacca
while we stay in school for our @#$%^&^% sabbats.)x
they should just let us stay in class
and let us bond for the last few days.<3
AND NOT SPLITTING US UP INTO DIFF SABBATS.)x
I hardly see half the class and gosh,
I miss them so much.<3
can someone freaking just tell the school that. -_-
I WANT TO BE WITH MY DARLING 211 .

I guess that's the worst thing about
being famous.
but you know what, stay strong
and don't give a shit about what other people
think. you will forever have people who
will support you until the very end,
and those are your true fans. :D
that was random. O.O HEHH.

Only 2 more days.
I can't imagine life without 211.
I can't imagine walking into class without
those familiar faces.
I can't imagine not crazying over every single
random thing without anyone of them.
Goodbyes are hard.
But at least, these memories will stay with me
now and forever.<3

MYDEAR,TAKECAREANDCOMEBACKSOON.<3
IMISSYOUALREADYANDIT'SONLYBEEN2DAYS. D:

without you is like a year without rain.

2010-11-04T22:02:00.002+08:00

Thank you for drama fest,
we didn't win but it's okay.
What matters was that when we went out
there, we were already winners.<3
Maybe all of you are disappointed but don't be,
'cos you know what,
211, we're forever ablaze.<3
and nothing's gonna stop the blazing fire ever.
I actually cried in the car after that LOL.

OH YAH. YOU ALL ARE EPIC ZOMGGG. :D
"jae leung is coming eh."
"REALLY AH."
"yah, his fb status got write."
"EH JAE LEUNG IS HEREEEEEEEEEE.
AND HE BOUGHT FROM OUR STOREEEEEE."
we all were like running frantically out of the LT
and started screaming in his face (not me ah.)
HAHAHA.
EPIC-NESS.
GOSH YOU GUYS ARE SO DESPO.<3

211, I'M SO PROUD OF YOU FOR EVERYTHING.
EVERY SINGLE TIME WE'RE ON STAGE,
EVERYTHING WOULD BE PERFECT.<3
EVERY SINGLE THING.<3
WE MADE THE AUDIENCE LAUGH LIKE SHIT
AND IT WASN'T CHEAP LAUGHTER.(:
JAE LEUNG LIKED OUR CLASS TOO. ^^
haha, YEAH.
WE BROUGHT THE HOUSE DOWN.<3

Anyway, I'm so sorry 211 that I'm always not
there for most of the post-exam activities 'cos
of CmPS and stuff and I couldn't take pictures
or talk much with you all. D:
I really really regret it. D:
but it's okay, I still have 4 more days with you all.
and I will treasure it forever.<3

oh yeah interclass games 211 was pro ttm yeah.<3

My dears,
I guess it's goodbye.
I know it's not the official last day of school for
us yet but,
we all know it's time to say goodbye.
We all know good things come to an end,
and no matter how much we hate to admit it,
we will move on.
we will forget.
and we all know we'll never be the same again
no matter how we try.
But,
that wouldn't stop me from trying.
trying to remember everything we once had,
trying to remember the times, good and bad,
trying to remember each and every one of you.
I can't promise we'll stay the same,
but I can promise that I won't forget,
each and every single one of you.<3

if we hold on together.

2010-10-29T23:46:00.002+08:00

211,
I just wanted to say that we got so
much more than we ever expected for,
I want you to be very very very proud of
ourselves,
and I want you to work even harder.

'Cos this is not the end as we had expected,
it's just the beginning.
What we get in the encore is not what matters,
what I really want to see is how far we've
come and how far we have grown.
I really want to see the effort and sweat,
I see it now, and I want you all to continue that.
'cos that's the thing I'm most proud of.(:

haha, I can't believe I cried when they announced,
even though I'm not the actor or some major role. O:
I guess,
all our hard work paid off.(:
211, I want to thank you for the tears of joy
that hasn't flowed for so long.
thank you.<3

211,
it's time to start working and
unleash our full potential.
'Cos people haven't seen our best yet.(:
you know what,
let's not give a shit about other classes.
All we have to do is to improve and to work
harder, so that we will not let ourselves down.
Live up to our own expectations,
and I think that's the most important.

211 JIAYOU.
I KNOW WE CAN DO THIS.
I BELIEVE IN IT.<3

I realised, maybe, just maybe,
there might be a rainbow after the rain.

wrote 200 letters that I would never send.

2010-10-25T20:17:00.002+08:00

hullo.
went to school today for, I'm sure you know
what, again. -_-
haish sian, I can't believe marking hols are over
alrd and I just spent all my time either in school
or rotting at home. Dx
and sec2s are released one week later for hols
which is like super unfair.
I'll seriously rather not have sabbats luh.)x

Haish I really want some people to put in
more effort for drama fest can.):
and people think that the costume/makeup is easy
but HAH. YEAH RIGHT.
some people just refuse to cooperate. O.O
whatever, I'm just gonna do my job well
and my conscience is clear. :D

zomg, I'm suddenly feeling the stress for cmps. D:
loykhengfang you better help me with
forum theatre or I will personally kill you okay. )x

okay jiayou cmps group!
I don't @#$%^&*&^ care if stupid shaun t. or NN is
ignoring us or whatever,
or whether we're gonna screw this up,
I'm just gonna put my best for it
and not care about the results. ^^
'cos since this is our best then we really have no regrets what.(:

fyi, I cut my hair today and I look weird but heck lah.
haish I don't want to go to school tmr,
cos it's the starting of doom. D:

okay buaibuai.
I'm so sorry darlings,
BURNING POMELOS ARE GONNA BURN THE HOUSE DOWN.<3
so watch out baby. 8D

inhale love, exhale hate.

2010-10-23T23:07:00.003+08:00

God says we must forgive and forget,
but it's really not as easy as it sounds.
I'm sorry.
but I know You will help me through this.(:
I'm really trying very hard,
but I guess time will heal everything,
as it always does.
Next time, I probably won't remember it anymore,
I hope.
So for now, I'll try and be a happy girl. ^^

picture perfect

2010-10-21T19:26:00.002+08:00

It takes a minute for me to let my guard down,
but once I do and I get to know someone, I'm very open,
very trusting. Some might say too trusting.
-Anne Hathaway

HELLO.<3
haha I'll try to post every day to make
up for the inactive hiatus during eoys.(:
uh so went back to school again. -_-
I think rehearsals were much smoother today but
we stilos to work on. D:
JIAYOUS PEOPLE~
we only have one more week left but
don't worry okay,
we'll do great.(:
211 GO GO GO! :D

it's after eoys and I don't feel as happy as I should
'cos every day's kinda boring doing the same thing
even though I have time to do things that
I didn't have time to do before.
Maybe it's about managing expectations,
I should be glad that I'm bored and having some free time
'cos it's just going to be luxury from next week onwards. D:

Haish.
my com is so freaking lag and slow, it drives me crazy. D<
anyway,
ANYONE WANT TO GO OUT WITH MEEEE? :D

okay bye.(:

you're not worth it.

2010-10-20T13:00:00.003+08:00

HULLO.
went to school in the morning for dramafest rehearsal.
it was kind of a mess but at least we
got some things done.(:
Jiayou 211, we're not gonna give up so easily.(:
who the heck cares if we're slower than some other class
or our script is not as good as whoever's,
we're 211 and that's the perfect reason to be awesome.<3

Now that the stress is over and I'm quite free,
I start to think of things that I'm not supposed to think about
and trying to forget.
wts it's not my fault okay,
some people are just so @#$%^&*&^%#@@!#$%^&*.
WHATEVER.
I WILL MAKE MYSELF FORGET. :D

I'm gonna let go and forget everything now,
'cos you're not worth it,
and never will be.

andand. LIMJIAYU CAN YOU PLEASE STOP DOING
STUPID THINGS TYVM. -_- If I get injured in anyway or
another, I'm so gonna kill you okay. xD

ooh. tumblr's purple today 'cos of ___________.
can they make it other colours too?(:

LOL BUAIBUAI for now.(:

we're gonna light this up.

2010-10-19T15:53:00.003+08:00

HULLO EVERYONE! :D

EOYS ARE OVERRRRRRRR AND I'M BACK. :D
oh wait. LET ME GO BURN MY BOOKS FIRST. xD
haha no lah.
okay I think everyone is outside now having fun
while I'm at home. O.O
BUT IT'S OKAY.
SPAMMING COMPUTER IS SO FREAKING FUN. :DDD

okay, I think I screwed most of my papers. D:
but HECK I DON'T CARE. :D
I'm just so glad that everything is over and I
don't have to give a damn about it anymore.(:

now that eoys are over,
I guess we start to realise that it's the end of the year.
A few more major events and stuff
and it's time to leave.

So let us just hold on and put in our effort for
the last few weeks and make this ending
something we'll be proud of.

JIAYOU 211 FOR DRAMAFEST!! :DDD
BEST DRAMA + AUDIENCE'S CHOICE SHALL BE OURS. :D
I KNOW WE CAN DO IT,
AND WE WILL.<3

JIAYOU TO PROJECT INTERCHANGE!<3
last lap liao, must do a good job.(:
I know all of you are feeling pretty clueless (are you? I AM. D: )
cos ST like totally dumped us.-_-
AND I DON'T KNOW HOW THE HECK I'M GONNA CONDUCT
FORUM THEATRE.
but it's okay, I KNOW WE CAN DO IT. :D
and after that, we can think about *ahem* expanding. LOL.
so just jiayou okay. we can make it.(:

HUIYUAN. KURT CAN BEATBOX. ZOMG. :D

OKAY BUAIBUAI.
shall post soon okay.(:

it's okay,
we're gonna make this all right,
even though we don't want an ending.

goodbye.

2010-09-17T21:55:00.002+08:00

Hey everyone.(:

This blog shall be on a hiatus
from now until 19 October 2010
due to the upcoming examinations.

However, do feel free to leave a tag
because the owner of this blog would be
happy to reply to it. :D

Good luck and all the best for your
examinations too!
The owner is mugging hard as well. :D
so don't miss her too much. 8D

MUGGER MODE.

Goodbye and have a good day! :D

hurt.

2010-09-17T21:36:00.002+08:00

HULLO EVERYONE.
yayy it's friday finally. :DDD
I LOVE FRIDAYS.<333
and I hate all the other days of the week. D<
I hate monday, tuesday, wednesday, thursday,
saturday and sunday.
I ONLY LIKE FRIDAYS. :D
haish, this weekend is damn D: cos I have to revise
for bio blocks.
I kinda understand bio but I scared I forget some
major important stuff. DDD:
OH CRAP I HOPE I DON'T FAIL IT.
*crosses fingers*

Handed in option form today and to everyone that wants
to know, I'm taking:
Chemistry
Biology
History
BSP

yupyup. Had trouble deciding between physics and bio,
but in the end, this is my choice I guess.(:
HAISH HUIYUAN IF WANT WE BOTH GO IN
TOGETHER OR NOT WE BOTH DON'T GO IN
TO THAT CLASS OKAY? :D

OMG I CAN'T BELIEVE EOYS ARE COMING
BUT I HAVEN'T EVEN FINISHED STUDYING BIO BT
HOW CAN I WORRY FOR EOYS RIGHT??

So for now, I'm gonna study hard for bio
and after that I'm gonna start mugging for EOYs.
and I want to get over with my clc presentation! D:

okay BUAIBUAI EVERYONE.
HAPPY MUGGING AND JIAYOU.
:D

someday, I will fly forever.

LALALA

2010-09-10T17:48:00.002+08:00

HULLO. :D
AS YOU CAN SEE,
I CHANGED MY BS!(:
BIG THANKS TO KHENG AND CLARISSA
FOR HELPING ME CHOOSE THE BS.<3
haha, I'm screwed but what the heck,
SO WHAT.
I SHAN'T BE SCREWED.
AND I CAN'T AND WON'T BE SCREWED.
WHAT CAN YOU DO ABOUT IT HUH. :D

YAYY ME. :D

lost in wonderland.

2010-09-09T15:01:00.002+08:00

I'M NOT DONE WITH HOLS HOMEWORK.
I HAVEN'T STARTED REVISING.
I STILL HAVE TONS OF HOMEWORK TO DO.
I'M SCREWED.
YAYY.

okay I should get back to work instead
of procrastinating here.
crap, I hate it when I have to use the com.
I get distracted and nothing gets done. )x

LIMJIAYU, STOP FANLIAN-ING WITH ME OVER SOMETHING
I DID NOT DO. )<

I'm afraid that someday, people will start to forget.
forget everything we've ever shared,
ever experienced, ever went through.
what if you don't remember anything that we've done together?

I don't want that to happen to 211.
I don't want this class to be a memory,
but a reality.

What if no one cries for me when I die cos they forgot about me?):

haha,
BUAIBUAI. :D

ihateyou.

2010-09-05T17:03:00.002+08:00

HULLO. :D
IT'S THE SCHOOL HOLS. :D
YAYY.
I GET TO SLEEP IN. \o/
okay, that's the only happy part.

I have so much homework that looking at
the list just drives me crazy already. DDD<
Do teachers think that we have a 1 month holiday??
I thought I would have time to study for EOYs
but I guess not luh. DDD:
now how do I find the time to study huh?):

HIASH.
I SHOULD TOTALLY STOP WASTING TIME
AND CLEAR MY HOMEWORK ASAP.
GOSH I HATE MY LIFE. D<

oh wells.
BUAIBUAI.
my tagboard is dead again. D:

thank you veron for everything,
what you said really encouraged me,
I'm gonna write it down so that I won't forget it,
and lastly,
thank you so much, God!

shit you.

2010-08-30T21:37:00.004+08:00

tomorrow is teachers' day celebration! :D
YAYY.
I'm going back to my pri sch,
but actually I don't miss my pri sch that much.
I just hope that I can meet classmates that
I haven't been in contact with.):
and of course, the outing later with my groupieee.(:
haha, EH YOU ALL MUST GO OUT FOR
MOVIE MARATHON OKAY.
MUST AH.
OR NOT YOU DIE!
hopefully more people comes mann. O:
they all never reply me. D:

this week is quite slack but sianz,
need to chiong stuff luh. D:
and I HAVE TO START ON REVISION SOON!
SHITTTT. D:
anyways,
happy teachers' day to all teachers!
BUAIBUAI.

How dare you tell people to treasure
people around them when you are the one
that's not doing it.
How dare you tell people to treasure their present,
when you have your perfect life and friends,
while I'm going through hell just cos of you.
How dare you.

come back.

2010-08-27T21:48:00.002+08:00

HULLO.
wow, I can't believe YOG ended yesterday already! D:
it's like, been so fast and I haven't watched
any matches properly yet. O.O
but I think Singapore did a great job for
THE VERY FIRST YOG.
and I'm proud of that.<3

haish, subject combos are confusing me,
insightful discussion on the bus today, tham and kheng. :D
I still don't know what I want to do.
If only I can tell the future. D:

Bubble tea sales are so funnnnnn~ :DDD
on wed it sold super well and I even had time to eat lunch.(:
today was not very good and we had to go around
asking a lot of people to buy.
PLUS IT WAS RAINING.
and so it was cold, and no one wanted to buy. D:
but at least we managed to sell finish lah.(:
YAYY.
PEOPLE, MUST BUY ON MONDAY OKAY! :D
LAST DAY LERH. D:

Life is busy,
and sometimes we don't stop to think,
what we really want,
but I guess it's not cos we have no time,
it's cos we just don't know.

BUAIBUAI PEOPLE.
TGIF. :D

LOL.

2010-08-20T21:48:00.002+08:00

HEY EVERYONE. :D
this week has been busy busy busy
and I'm so #$%^&*((*&^%$@ depressed
at how badly my blocks are screwed up but
I guess, there's nothing much I can do except
to try harder.

It's so unfair,
when you work your guts out, harder than anyone else,
but the results you get are too far for comparison,
and yet, you can't do anything about it.
'cos you've already tried your best.
it's unfair.
when you need it so much more than they do,
but the great things they get,
never happen to you.

Life is irritating. Seriously.

Anyway, looking forward to tomorrow.<3
got a feeling that it's gonna be damn funny and unforgettable. xD
LOL.

get well soon jiayu~<333
rest more and drink more water okay!
We really like angel, like mortal eh.
but this time it's a bad thing.):
GET WELL SOON JIAYU DARLING.<333

When all else fails, just try harder, and harder, and harder.

blahblahblah

2010-08-13T21:39:00.004+08:00

hullo,
today was a veh fun and tiring day. :D
morning was super late to school
cos of a @#$%^&*^% traffic jam.
but I'm so happy I didn't screw the dance~ :DDD
oh, and I touched the YOG TORCH WHEN IT PASSED BY. :D
YAYY ME. ;D
OH YES,
LIMJIAYU I CHEERED FOR YOU OKAY.
TOO BAD YOU CANNOT HEAR ME COS I WAS
AT THE OTHER SIDE.
BUT I SCREAMED OKAY.
I SCREAMED. I REALLY DID.
SO YOU CANNOT BLAME ME. :D
I SCREAMED UNTIL MY SENIOR STARED AT ME.
HEHH. xD
SEE?
I SO NICE OKAY.
YOU OWE ME ANOTHER HUG. :DDD

funfair was damn tiring cos I walked around for 3457852 hours.
morning shift: went around publicizing and
YOU KNOW WHAT.
OUR BUSINESS ACTUALLY NOT BAD EH. :D
then after that went around with xienxien.(:
but xienxien and I were super bloated and everything
and we didn't know what to spend our money on. LOL.
so anyway. saw sasha.<333
she so evil lah she. naughty girl. xD
and then helped out in the stall somemore.
and then homed.

anyway. I'm tired now so I shan't post more about it.
for more info, please look at other classmates' blogs.
LOL.
OH YAH,
OUR HONEY LEMON AND ICE LEMON TEA IS SO
FREAKING NICE. :D
IT TASTES EXACTLY LIKE CAN DRINK.
YAYY 211. <333

OMG.
I'M SO TIRED RIGHT NOW.
I WANT TO SLEEP
BUT I HAVE TO START ON MY (*&^$@#$%^&* BIO SIA.
OMG
I'M SO SCREWED. D<

buai everyone.(:

king of anything.

2010-08-10T20:50:00.004+08:00

remember how we used to do this in PE
and how we shrieked when we
were lifted off the ground?
I do, do you?

HEY.(:
had been sick the past few days
which totally shucks since this is my only
time to slack,
AND THEN I FELL SICK.
WTH.
anyway, haven't fully recovered though,
and I HONESTLY DO SOUND LIKE A FROG. D:
HAISH.

and and.
I GOT A NEW PHONE!!!
FINALLY!
YESH!
bwahaha.(:
I waited so long to get one since
I couldn't find one that I really liked.
I love love love my new phone.<3
but this new one is kinda complicated 'cos I've
never used this kind before. O:
it's just weird lah.(:
BUTBUT. IT'S PREEEEETYYYYY. :D
and I'm sure I'll get used to it!
LOL.
YAYY.
I'M HAPPY. :D

this week is a damn slack week,
I love love love week 7 ttm.
I better enjoy this week, since it's like tuesday already! D:
anyway,
I better get started on Bio SIA before I
die a terrible death.
I bet a lot of people started already luhh.
I haven't. AT ALL.
COS I WAS SICK. D:
ARGHHHH.

BUAIBUAI. :D

shut up.

2010-08-07T13:31:00.002+08:00

hullo.
haha, sorry didn't post yesterday.(:
had cross country yesterday,
kinda tiring but okay lah,
since I walked most of the way as planned. xDDD
ah been slacking for more than 3 days
now and it feels so weird cos I'm kinda
feeling guilty after studying for so long. /:
whatever lah. heck.
I'm just gonna do my work and play too(:
while I brace myself for the terrible results
and say bye to my HP. ):
HAISH.

BUAIBUAI.
going to cell now.
haven't been to church for so long. DDD:

it's too late.

2010-08-05T21:41:00.003+08:00

hullo everyone!
I bring good news:
BLOCKS ARE FINALLY OVER.
OMG I STILL CAN'T BELIEVE IT. ;DDD
honestly I don't feel very happy either
but at least it's a big load off my mind.(:
the most depressing thought is that I have to start
EOY revision soon. WTH.
ANDAND.
I SCREWED UP EVERYTHING FOR THIS BLOCKS.
WHAT THE HECK.
I shan't think about it anymore or I will get
depressed. ):
there flies my HP.))):

went out with nat, szeqi and rachel yesterday.<3
haha, initially wanted to go kbox and we didn't go
after all cos rachel and szeqi wanted food
and it wouldn't be worth it without. D:
so we decided next time must go earlier than got food! :D
LOL.
so anyway.
we wanted to watch street dance, okay NAT wanted to,
but then the one at cineleisure don't have,
and there's no cinema anywhere near.
so in the end,
we just walked around and ate lots of stuff.
LOL.
I THINK WE WALKED THE WHOLE OF ORCHARD ROAD.
yesterday was epic batchies.<3
with you all, everyday will be more than epic.<333

tomorrow's cross country which totally
sucks man, I don't even know where we're
supposed to meet. O.O
ah whatever, I just hope I don't die after that
cos I want to go library borrow books. (:

WHY NO ONE WANT TO GO OUT WITH ME! )x
and someone please tag lah,
or I will seriously lock the blog again.

okay, will post again tmr. or someday.(:
BUAIBUAI.

fml.

2010-07-30T20:45:00.002+08:00

hullo I'm back.
I wasn't gone for very long though.
and don't ask me why I locked this,
cos there's seriously no reason.
I realised that the whole world can see this
and some things are just not meant to be seen.
but I can promise that I didn't
write any new post or deleted any post.
I didn't touch this the entire week.
I do have other sources for personal ranting.(:

A tiring week but the most annoying and
depressing fact is that next week's gonna get worse.
OMG,
NEXT WEEK IS BLOCKS AND I HAVEN'T FINISHED
MY REVISION, I'M HONESTLY GONNA DIE.
What is gonna happen to my goal now?):

I think I shouldn't think about it.
JIAYOU EVERYONE FOR BLOCKS!!!
AFTER NEXT WEEK, WE'LL BE FREE! :D
so just hold on a little longer yeah?
JIAYOU JIAYOU JIAYOU!

okay. shall start now.
buaibuai. :D

omgIamseriouslyfreakingoutnowbutIshouldn'tsoIwon't
andIshouldhonestlystartstudyingsoonorIwillreallydieIshan'tthink
aboutitanymoreandjustgetstartedonmyrevision.

nat, our dream how?):

empty.

2010-07-23T21:07:00.003+08:00

but how can I when it's empty?

HULLO PEOPLE. :D
yayy, it's finally friday,
but omg the stress and fear kicks
in cos I haven't started studying and I
can't start studying cos I have forum theatre tmr
and @#$%^&*(%$ piles of homework
and...
OMG. I'M SOOOOOOOOOO GONNA DIE.
but whatever, I must hold on, I must chiong.
I cannot let go of my hope, just like that.

TODAY WAS DAMN EPIC AND FUN.
SZEQI, NAT AND RACHEL I LOVE YOU ALL TO BITS SERIOUSLY.<333
the bus ride was crazy and haha,
I THINK OUR PRESENT FOR MS LIM IS SO FREAKING AWESOME.<333
I think the food will be equally good too! :D
yayy sec2s I think we are damn awesome. :DDD
anyway, DESPICABLE ME WAS SO CUTE AND
FUNNY AND SWEET AND EVERY OTHER NICE THINGS IN THE WORLD.<333
If you haven't watched it,
you seriously should or not you'll really regret it. O:
cos the movie is seriously damn nice
and sitting the the second row was just too epic.(:
IT WAS SO FUN.
AGNES IS SO FREAKING CUTEEEEEE! ;DDDD
thank you batchmates for everything.
I love love love you all to bits.❤❤❤
'cos even though you don't know it,
but you all cheered me up even though I'm at my wits end
and I have no freaking idea what to do.
so thank you.❤
today, I was happy.(:
I'm very glad that I'm happy today.(:
cos I kinda forgot that feeling.

it's so fluffy, I'm gonna die. :D

2010-07-18T13:34:00.003+08:00

"Is this counted as annoying?"

omg, this doesn't fail to make me smile. :D
for that moment, it takes away all that pain.
I WANT TO WATCH DESPICABLE ME. ;DDD

YAYY.
I GOT CONFIRMED YESTERDAY. :D
thanks abby for the flower!
and happy birthday to you shiyingggggg~ (:
back to my (argh) homework.
BUAI PEOPLE.

when will all this end,
please, what happened to you?
I guess, we're not the same anymore.
and that makes my heart break, so much.

I wish it could.

2010-07-17T10:34:00.001+08:00

I really wish it could.

hullo.
what a eventful week! :D
haha, I'm still really tired though.

Skylark,
it's over.
I wasn't perfect, I'll admit.
but we did our best, we sang our hearts out,
despite the odds.
we didn't cry, but we held on together,
and when we went out for the last performance
with a smile,
we meant it.
cos it's not just about singing, it's not just about making music.
We make people happy,
and that joy is indescribable.

SKYLARK 2010,
it seems like it ended,
but the music lives on. :D
'cos we're just getting started,
as long as we don't stop believin'. ♥

This week has been crazy,
I know it might get worse every time,
but I must hold on, I must,
I can't let them get me down.
I won't let her or anything get me down.
tata, I really need you.

feel the beat.

2010-07-11T16:46:00.003+08:00

how does it feel like waking up every morning
wishing you were better off dead?

omg, Skylark's in 4 days! *hyperventilates*
I don't know what to expect, I'm not even thinking about it.
whatever it is, in my heart I know,
it's gonna be, so beautiful.

I'm so sorry vanessa,
I didn't know.
I wish, I was there.
but whatever it is, stay strong.
and keep in touch yah?(:

don't stop believin',
hold on to that feeling.

I'm so tired I really am,
so please, stop doing this to me.
I have no time to play this game with you.
I have no idea what you want.
so please, stop making me feel like dying.

don't leave me.

2010-07-10T13:28:00.002+08:00

hullo. :D
OMG I AM SO PROUD OF MYSELF.
I SURVIVED THIS WEEK.
YESH! *air punch*

Skylark's in 5 days.
omggggggg.
I don't know whether to be happy,
excited, stressed, scared, worried
or what.
I feel a little bit of everything. O:
but whatever it is,
We're gonna do well.
We have to, and we WILL.
every effort, it will not go to waste.
'cos we're gonna bring the house down. :D

we have to keep pushing tickets people.
4.30pm must get full house! :D
I realy really really hope we can get full house,
then all our effort won't go to waste.(:
besides, everyone will get to see a different
side of nygh choir.(:
PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE 211.
can you all come?
only 2 people from our class is coming and
that is so pathetic. D:
we've trained soooooooo hard,
and it's so different from limelight last year.
even though limelight songs were harder,
but this time, It's really so much harder,
the added pressure 'cos the songs are "simple"
and the physical stress too.
I hope I don't fall sick even though my body is aching.
*crosses fingers*

yesterday's FLY was so awesome.<333
it's so true.
the world, can be so sweet yet so unforgiving at times.
I understood everything from the bottom
of my heart.
'cos I know and I can feel their pain.
FLY was just so beautiful.
I would have cried if not for the funny bits. xD
thank you theatre,
teddy bear sister and kiayee,
you were just so cute and awesome.(:

haiz, weekends.
homework. homework. homework.
I think I should try and start soon.
next week.
I don't know what to feel for it.

buai buai darlings. :D

fly me to the moon.

2010-07-04T22:48:00.003+08:00

fly me to the moon;
let me play among the stars.

hullo everyone. :D
argh, taking a break from mugging chem. D:
I CAN'T BELIEVE I'M STILL NOT DONE WITH IT.
ARGH.
super pissed with myself luh. D<
okay whatever.
11 days to Skylark.
OMG. I
really hope we can dance and all that after all.
*crosses fingers*
NYC JIAYOU~
WE CAN DO IT,
EVEN IF THE SKY COMES CRASHING DOWN.
COS WE WILL SURVIVE.
AND WE WILL GIVE THEM AN UNFORGETTABLE CONCERT.
why?
simple,
WE ARE NYC.
WE ARE A CUT ABOVE THE REST. :D
oh heck yeah.
oh no, I don't know if we sold full house yet.):
nvm, we can do it, remember?

eh. tata, you don't read my blog so I shan't
write dedication yah. xD
anyway, I wished you like dunno how many times already.
and if I write now, it'll be late.
so yah, sorry. D:

haiz. I guess that's all from my life.
buaibuai.

maybe I was wrong, maybe you were not any different.
when will I stop getting hurt, by you, who is
so unconscious of whatever you are doing.
I guess, I'm just dispensable.

cos you're my everything.

2010-06-30T21:01:00.004+08:00

BOO.
hey people, sorry for not updating yah,
school's reopened already and that sucks. D:
so uh, been kinda busy.
I still haven't started my chem bt revision!
omg, I'm so dead. can I just kill myself now? D:

so anyway. changed my bs for fun.(:
but I hate the font of the posts.
it's too biggg. O:

and main point is:

HAPPIE BIRTHDAY TO YOU JIAYU DARLING~

gosh, this is like my dunno what time saying
it already. xD
so anyway.
hope you stay as the lovely jiayu
'cos I love you just the way you are.(:
thanks so much for everything.

friday's be-yourself-day.(:
hehh, kind of anticipating to see
what everyone's gonna wear. xD
WHEE.

and omg, can someone please go skylark?
I've been begging everyone like crazy
and all their reactions are like O.O
argh, super pissed.
yes you stupid qiqi.
I guess they just don't know the effort,
the sweat, the tears.
they don't know.
or maybe, they don't even care.

heck yeah.

2010-06-24T22:52:00.003+08:00

I don't know what to think,
I'm overcome by fear.

Who says I'm not trying?
I'm trying so hard,
you won't imagine.

All I can do is,
cross my fingers.
and don't die.

But I can't think like this,
I cannot let them down.

I don't care if I fail,
I must fight back.

It doesn't matter anymore.
We are one, forever and ever,
and we will fight till the end.
We will never bow down to defeat.

I love you people.<333
We can do it.
Oh yes, we can.

swing your heart.

2010-06-23T20:28:00.003+08:00

you make me hang my heart out on a string.

hello.
scared for tmr's prac. O.O
'cos scores are driving me crazy and
I just can't get them in my head. D:

eh, no homework progress. DDD:
it's the last week of school holidays.
that stupid reality just made me realised.
ARGH.
and I haven't even relaxed AT ALL.
AND NOW SCHOOL'S REOPENING??
someone just kill me. D<

I think I may be changing my bs soon.(:
If I find the time to. O.O
but at least I know what I want. XD

and my mom says cannot have anymore
soft toys or she will make me return
them 'cos my ezcema is inflaming again.
ARGH.
and she go and keep all my baby poohs.D:
sorry kheng.):

I guess that's all.
haiz, life is so sian.
every morning, I wake up,
I don't even know what I'm living for anymore.
isn't that so true?

buaibuai.

one, two, three.

2010-06-21T15:09:00.003+08:00

flip the page for the chapter of our first love story.

hullo darlings.
I'm kinda bored. D:
anyway. still on my clc sia.
it's taking me ages to complete it and
I am going completely crazy over it. D<

I need to go outtt.
where's my shopping spree!
and besides, I still owe lots of people
their presents.
I need freedom. from this pile of homework.
GAH.
wish me luck memorizing scores.
the Japanese words are driving me crazy. O.O
I MUST COMPLETE MY HOMEWORK.
SO I CAN PLAY. PLAY. PLAY. :D
someone help me.):

I wish there was a law to stop me from procrastinating
so much. D:

I am hereby by law on a self-restraining
order to go on the internet.
Any breach of this contract will be met with
punishment as according to the above crime.

LOL.

thanks.

2010-06-20T13:37:00.003+08:00

HAPPY DADDY DAY!!

I don't know what to give my dad,
and we're not celebrating 'cos we're
going grampa's house tonight. ):
oh wells. nvm.

oh yes, this is my 200th post.(:
I feel so awesome. xD

I feel relieved after yesterday.
lots of waiting, but I love the sparkly bracelet
that gives out light. (:
a lot of babies wanted it, but it is mine.
and I love the hiphop dance even though I can't
dance it, 'cos I didn't learn the steps properly
and I only know parts of it.
the music, the moves, the beat, the atmosphere.
it's awesome.

homework-ing today.
but at this rate, I think I'm slacking again. D<

this is why I hate using the com.

ARGH.
PLEASE STOP PROCRASTINATING
LOW HUI LEE.
sometimes I just feel like killing myself. D<

I don't know.

2010-06-19T11:13:00.002+08:00

when I look at you,
it's as if the whole world only has us two.

hullo.
today is the day of the hiphop thingy,
den den da den.
actually I'm not looking forward to it
'cos there will be a lot of waiting,
WHICH IS A TOTAL WASTE OF TIME
I can use the time doing my clc sia okay. D<
argh. I hate time.
time, will you stop passing so quickly! D<
anyway, birthday dedication! :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOUUU~
LOY KHENG FANG!!<333

hope you have an awesome and great 14th birthday
okay!<3 THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING AND
I LOVE YOU.❤

ah sigh. I don't feel well.D:
hope I feel well enough to go later though,
or all my effort is wasted. D:
okay.
back to my clc sia. buaibuai.

doom day.

2010-06-16T20:18:00.002+08:00

maybe I'm just not that strong.

HULLO EVERYONE.
I feel super sian and sick of everything,
and omg, why can't there be a day that I don't have
to leave the house! ARGH.
I don't even have the time to do my homework. D<
not looking forward to tomorrow at all,
but at least it's in the night,
I won't get burnt and turn black again.
at least there won't be sun.
and the stupidest thing is I can't remember the
dance steps and I didn't even learn for some. D<
but I can't go facebook and learn it 'cos my com
can't play fb videos.
and another stupid thing is that I'm moved front,
like around the middle there which is BAD.
'cos everyone can see me making a fool of myself.
ARGH. I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO LAH.
my life is so !@#$%^&*(*&^%$. DDD<
I'm so screwed tomorrow.
and the worst thing is,
I CAN'T EVEN DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT.

back to my clc sia.
buai.

juneee

2010-06-15T17:51:00.003+08:00

the simple one word that starts a spark.

HULLO EVERYONE.
I have nothing to post yah.
'cos everything's the usual.
going to school almost everyday.
homework, homework and more homework,
procrastination.
stressed out.
you know, the usual.
yah, so I shall not bore you.(:
it really seems that I'm the only one struggling to
finish my homework.
how depressing. ARGH.

main point is birthday dedication:

JUN WANG FANGYI:
HAPPIE BIRTHDAY TO YOU DEAR!<3

may all your dreams and wishes come true~
we must go out during dec yah, so sorry,
busy chionging homework cannot go out during june. D:
oh yes, stay happy and cute,
and my dear, please talk more.(:
ooh, yes continue loving your mangas and draw your
awesome drawings.<3
I LOVE YOU FANGFANG. :D

gosh, I miss my primary school friends. D:
anyways.
back to my clc sia.
or at least. trying to do.
MAJOR PROCRASTINATION IN PROGRESS.
ARGH.
buaibuai.
and qiqi, I know I rock. xD

you decide, dear.

2010-06-14T22:57:00.002+08:00

do you believe in miracles?
yes, I do;
ever since I met you.

thank you tata,
today was really awesome.<3
thank you so much.(:
I LOVE YOU.<333

2010-06-12T13:05:00.002+08:00

SKYLARK BY NYCHOIR

4.30pm and 7.30pm
You are strongly encouraged to come for
the 4.30pm one.(:
NYGH Siew May Auditorium
tickets at $12 only

Please come 'cos it's gonna be lots of fun!
We'll be singing ABBA songs, Japanese Anime songs, etc.
And for the first and probably the last time ever,
we'll be singing and DANCING at the same time! :D
Please come and support us 'cos we put in a lot of effort
preparing for this concert!
You won't regret coming, I promise.(:
Please sms or email or tag me if you want to buy tickets!
We really really really want you to come! :D
see you there!

what can I say.

2010-06-12T11:59:00.002+08:00

HULLO.
Sorry for not posting.
been busy. O: and I can't find next pictures
to go with my posts so I end up not posting. :x
I like my previous post, it's cool.(:

anyway. homework is not progressing.
I just don't feel like doing anything at all. D:
ah, I wish I could sleep at home all day
without having to do anything, 'cos I guess I'm
seriously really sian. D:
but I don't have a choice anyway.
And I hate having to go to school.
what's the use of school holidays when I keep having to
see the school! D< ARGH.

my name, it was not there.
should I try?
but what's the use when they are only 3 places.
I guess my only chance is next year.
I don't know.
I just don't want to be that useless.

LIFE IS BORING.
and I don't want to do anything. D:
sighs. have to go out to buy lunch now.
BUAIBUAI.

I guess I should just stop thinking about how useless
I am 'cos it doesn't help me achieve my goal anyway.
whatever it is, I'm just gonna try my best.
I'm gonna do it. I know I can.
'cos God says I was made to be awesome.
oh heck yeah, I am.